Yet you conceptualize it as an external descending force<quoted text>
HaShem is simply a typal being - one out of many such competing typal beings - of the Vital Plane (3rd-4th planes of the cosmic hierarchy).
The Ultimate Reality is the Pure Consciousness with its innate Pure Energy Field that transcends the whole Cosmic/Supracosmic Manifestation and is besides the source of the whole Manifestation (which includes HaShem, the rivals of HaShem and us).
Like I said, you say tomato, I say tomato..
Do you see yourself as an altar boy?