I'm tired of the usual religion. thanks to church activities and endless services i have lost touch with the One who saved me. Where has the truth gone? It's replaced with politics and ritual. Where can someone go to actually worship God? don't know unless you just want to be a face in the crowd. it seems that in every church there are the power brokers and then there is everybody else. the folks that have been there for ever and think they own the place because of their family name and all the work they have done. I think they should be honored for all the work they and their families have done to the church building but what about actually letting people in? they appear to care more about being in control and making sure that everyone worships the same as they do than they do about actually reaching people for Jesus. It's sad really. some of us are left out in the cold. everybody thinks or says their church is not one of those churches but they most likely are. I know that none of us are called to be lone ranger Christians but I really need to know if anyone out there is more interested in God than in religion. What really hurts me is that many folks have been down very dark paths and come from families that are outcasts in the community and because of their past or their families reputation the "pillars" of the church are ready to look down on them at the very least or ostracize them or worse. where is the compassion in that? oh what i really see is not compassion but patronizing. we have to help out those poor starving pygmies in Africa (because we know that they are not as smart or as educated or as rich or as grounded in the community as us). this makes me ill. do they not know that they are naked, starving and blind, and they are worried about those poor pygmies in Africa or the "trailer trash" here in Siloam. this trailer trash citizen needs to find God and God's people who are without judgement and pride and patronizing attitudes. I'm still going to ramble on a little. Why do we have to meet every time someone blinks an eye? three times a week worked in 1920 but many of us have jobs and families. it seems the old folks like the routine of meeting three times a week. why not? they are retired they have plenty of time on their hands but some of us still have jobs and families. I know most folks in this town are well meaning but I'm so wore out from living up to my church's expectations that I have lost touch with the things that are important to me. Jesus for one, family secondly and friends thirdly. when you work all week and get home after dark, you don't have time to do anything on Saturday except work in the yard because your Sunday if going to be full. I thought Sunday was a day of rest. So where's the rest? It's not in programs and endless activities and meaningless meetings. And where is God in all this? Probably wondering when His people are going to STOP and remember that they are working for Him and not themselves or their aging parents or their overbearing pastor. So where does it end? Let me have your best comments. Just wondering if anyone else out there feels like me or if I am just a heathen who doesn't want to serve his slave driving God.