Posted in the Ormond Beach Forum
#1 Dec 27, 2012
So, I have something that needs to be said and this is where I decided to put it out. Yup, topix is where I'm putting this. Get over it, this is happening.
There is a girl that I have been in love with since I was 10 years old.(30's now). I knew she was the one the first time I saw her in our 4th grade classroom. I picked on her. She picked on me. The next school year came and she'd moved away. Thought I'd never see her again.
Then came the first day of middle school. Scared out of my mind. Waiting and bullsh*ting with a couple friends she spins me around and picks up right where we left off. I spent the next two years trying to figure out a way to tell her how I felt. Never did and she moved away, again.
We ended up going to different high schools.(I went to Mainland, she went to Sleezebreeze). Again, never though I'd see her again. Then, one day working at the movie theater she walks up and I thought my heart was gonna explode through my chest and enter a standard orbit. I don't even remember what I said. It had to be something along the lines of what Charlie Brown's teacher always says. Not long after that I moved away. Thought I'd never see her again, again.
I gave up on her and I ever being together. I settled down, got married, had a kid, yadda, yadda..
The social media hits it big and we're friends on FB. I am divorced now, living in BFE nowhere near home and not a second goes by I don't think of what might have been.
So, you've just read the sad dribblings of a guy that didn't get the girl. Congrats! You've won. You've won nothing. That's life, it sucks, deal...
I know what's going through your mind. "This guy is f*cking pathetic! Just tell her"! I will never tell her. Not because I'm a nuttless, yellow turd. But because of who we've become. I am an asshole who is rather on the introverted side. She is a gorgeous, outgoing woman. She deserves much better than I can ever be. I will not doom her to a life with a guy who can't be the man she deserves. But, I love her. Always have, always will....
Thanks for reading. Now, are you sure you didn't leave your meatloaf in the oven for too long? I smell something..
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