It really doesn't matter to me what you believe, but I do hope you can get some help with those anger issues you have. Whatever happened to you in your life will always cause you pain until you get a handle on it.<quoted text>
She lost Caylee about as much as you lost your kids, imo you are both full of shit.
If you can't afford private counseling, try one of the help lines. It will be good to have someone to talk to about what's bothering you.