The Children's Shelter behind Geriatric Center (SOHO)

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Nov 8, 2013
 
DYFS started out as part of the Department of Institutions and Agencies.
While in their "protective custody" in the Shelter in Belleville I was tortured and abused mentally physically and medically experimented on for fun not to test medical treatments by the staff from some ward in the Isolation Hospital where they kept children. They had the help of Nurses and other staff from the County Geriatric Center, which was in the same hospital building in hiding their activities. They used ECT and drugs to as part of the torture to wipe my memory and for the damage it did to my developing brain. They hated how smart I was. At one point I was paralyzed after an assault in School # 10 across the street. I was left on a stretcher in the hall behind the first floor nurses station to do my mind more harm they denied me any visible or audible stimulation going so far as to knock me out with meds when they cleaned my body. I recovered movement in spite of how badly I was treated after the old nasty geriatric doctor who “treated” me first helped them find a specialist from another county who was young and willing to work off the books (hide the records). The woman in charge of small children (*Aunt Dolly is all I was told to call her) a “No Show” job as far as she was concerned, arranged this. Her husband was the County Sheriff and I suspect made sure nothing came of the investigation. I figured this out after I started remembering 7 years ago. Her junior partner in crime was called Ms. Janey.
It was their habit of not showing up for long stretches and leaving older kids in charge to do her job that let me be abused as I was. She was fat and lazy and let the “kids” who ran the joint at the behest of the adults from the Hospital who abused me (and the disabled kids in their charge at the hospital) tell her what to think say and do all without her realizing it. She and her partner in crime are still alive and unpunished for their crimes. I think Ms Janey still works for the County. Aunt Dolly’s husband the former Sheriff Ralph D’Ambola is dead. Aunt Dolly was the one who made sure they drugged me daily and kept me in that back hallway with no stimulation other than random terrorizing to destroy my memory.
That doctor fused my C spine at 3-4. It hurt like hell and the headache and ear ringing has never stopped. They used straps to hold the halo onto my head. Tied my body to the gurney then to compress my neck they used more straps so that there were no scars from the screws that are normally screwed into the skull to hold the halo in place. I was subjected to constant torment when not being denied any stimulus at all including not letting me see a clock or know what time or day it was. A new nurse heard me crying out for someone to come talk to me and got fired for moving me into an empty room next to where my gurney was in that back hall to protect me from the kids who came to torment me at meal times. The kids ate inside the hospital; the Shelter was out behind it in another building.
The assault was pre arranged as the regular teacher planned to take that day off and the substitute was known and gotten to before hand. She made me and my assailant stay after class and when I asked why after everyone else had left she got up and left without saying a word. He attacked me and after chasing me around a while he got me in a headlock under his left arm and dropped to the floor breaking my neck and paralyzing me.
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At the end of it all a woman whose name I do not recall tried to save me and could only get me sent on to foster care. Yet I remember her walking alongside my gurney as I was taken into the room where they ECT’d me the last time whispering something into my ear that she desperately wanted me to remember. Just before sending me on to foster care they made sure to ECT and drug me good that last time to make sure I forgot what they did or even that I was there. I did for a very long time. I lived my whole life thinking all these symptoms of that abuse were congenital defects.
The foster parents were selected for their stupidity and cruelty. The first home I was constantly beaten and she was told to concentrate on the injured body parts that they injured during the torture at the Shelter. A Social Worker would come by every few weeks and take me for a ride and beat me and otherwise terrorize me saying things I did not understand.“You better keep your mouth shut” Smack and so on.
The second home was not physically abusive it was more psychological abuse running me down and denial of any positive interaction and denial of stimulation. I was a slave to be used and then made to sit alone in a room until I was to be used again. In all places I was prevented from doing any physical exercise or any physical exertion. At the Shelter they even took me into the hospital to radiate my thyroid trying to slow me down. The staff of the hospital ran it. The doctors were stupid moronic uncaring figureheads whom their staff lied to and laughed at behind their backs for how easy it was to lead them with false stories a tiny bit of effort would have shown up for the lies they were.
I am not the only one done this way at the Shelter. After many years I finally met one person who was there 7 years before the records say I was there and he was subjected to ECT and drugging as well as repeated rape in 1961.
The crap they did is straight out of almost any history of what the Nazi’s did to the Jews. Torture, lobotomy, ECT, experiments for fun, drugging, sexual abuse, the list goes on and on. I am not the only one. Imagine what they did to the disabled children they were supposed to be caring for.

The first memory I had which made me realize it was something more than nightmares was this. I place it literally the day before I was to be finally allowed to get off the gurney. One of the orderlies had been trying very hard to be allowed to take me outside. He was nice to me, but they all were until they weren’t. Anyway he took me outside under one of the trees on the Carpenter Street side of the building he lit a Newport cigarette. He then grabbed my right hand with both of his. Arched himself over me and in as nasty and hatefully angry a voice as he could muster he said to me; “If you remember this, and you won’t but if you do. You tell them it was race warfare!” and he then bent my thumb all the way back to my arm as hard as he could until it touched and I started screaming. The woman he had tricked into letting him tale me out came running form inside and the memory ends.
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Nov 8, 2013
 
Somehow the first post isn't showing even though the front page shows two comments. Here
DYFS started out as part of the Department of Institutions and Agencies.
While in their "protective custody" in the Shelter in Belleville I was tortured and abused mentally physically and medically experimented on for fun not to test medical treatments by the staff from some ward in the Isolation Hospital where they kept children. They had the help of Nurses and other staff from the County Geriatric Center, which was in the same hospital building in hiding their activities. They used ECT and drugs to as part of the torture to wipe my memory and for the damage it did to my developing brain. They hated how smart I was. At one point I was paralyzed after an assault in School # 10 across the street. I was left on a stretcher in the hall behind the first floor nurses station to do my mind more harm they denied me any visible or audible stimulation going so far as to knock me out with meds when they cleaned my body. I recovered movement in spite of how badly I was treated after the old nasty geriatric doctor who “treated” me first helped them find a specialist from another county who was young and willing to work off the books (hide the records). The woman in charge of small children (*Aunt Dolly is all I was told to call her) a “No Show” job as far as she was concerned, arranged this. Her husband was the County Sheriff and I suspect made sure nothing came of the investigation. I figured this out after I started remembering 7 years ago. Her junior partner in crime was called Ms. Janey.
It was their habit of not showing up for long stretches and leaving older kids in charge to do her job that let me be abused as I was. She was fat and lazy and let the “kids” who ran the joint at the behest of the adults from the Hospital who abused me (and the disabled kids in their charge at the hospital) tell her what to think say and do all without her realizing it. She and her partner in crime are still alive and unpunished for their crimes. I think Ms Janey still works for the County. Aunt Dolly’s husband the former Sheriff Ralph D’Ambola is dead. Aunt Dolly was the one who made sure they drugged me daily and kept me in that back hallway with no stimulation other than random terrorizing to destroy my memory.
That doctor fused my C spine at 3-4. It hurt like hell and the headache and ear ringing has never stopped. They used straps to hold the halo onto my head. Tied my body to the gurney then to compress my neck they used more straps so that there were no scars from the screws that are normally screwed into the skull to hold the halo in place. I was subjected to constant torment when not being denied any stimulus at all including not letting me see a clock or know what time or day it was. A new nurse heard me crying out for someone to come talk to me and got fired for moving me into an empty room next to where my gurney was in that back hall to protect me from the kids who came to torment me at meal times. The kids ate inside the hospital; the Shelter was out behind it in another building.
The assault was pre arranged as the regular teacher planned to take that day off and the substitute was known and gotten to before hand. She made me and my assailant stay after class and when I asked why after everyone else had left she got up and left without saying a word. He attacked me and after chasing me around a while he got me in a headlock under his left arm and dropped to the floor breaking my neck and paralyzing me.
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Nov 8, 2013
 
Sorry for the extra post I refreshed several times before doing it.
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Nov 9, 2013
 
That brief story only hits the highlights of what I recall now. In spite of the records and what you will be told by former staff many many children were kept there for very extended periods of time. In fact the County got in trouble for it from the state while I was there. I deduce from what I recall that I was easily there for more than a year, I assert it was more than two years. I was told you understand that told I did not know that I was 7 when they sent me on to foster care. I remember being told by my aunt when she left me there not to tell anyone how old I was. I was about 4 and very precocious, I was not aware of it then but an awful lot of adults found dealing with me uncomfortable because I would expose the logical fallacies in what they said when they lied to me in answer to my questions. I did not know it but I understood things about logical process and how grammar works to help find truth that most adults do not even today.
The minimum age for a child to be in the Shelter was 5. That ability and my prodigious memory which I think now was probably eidetic was what they hated about me other than my being white, and were trying to destroy. They succeeded and all the problems the liked to tell me I would have because of what they did to me came true.
I was not the first or only child done this way. They had it down almost to a science.

Where are all you staff now that said you would step up to help me if I remembered? Did anyone in your family tell you a story that resembles this? Anyone who had a disabled child in the 4th floor notice an inexplicable change in your child or sibling?
This place was Auschwitz on the Second River and I will not rest until the scum who knowing participated and hide it are held to account.
The authorities are not interested and won't speak to me honestly because they don't want to find out direct knowledge of the fact that these were not run of the mill abuse crimes, what these scum did were Crimes Against Humanity. I think they know it and don't want the thousands of people who were abused there for decades to come forward.
My abusers often spoke of crimes committed by slave masters then did it to me, or of war crimes committed against our soldiers in Vietnam and then did it to me, or about Nazi crimes and did it to me. They knew full well what they were doing and as is usually the case it was what they did to cover it up that caused them to commit the most heinous crimes of all. Yo see my memory kept recovering from the drugging and ECT's so they kept going at me with it over an over harder and harder each time. I recall one woman I assume was a nurse was thrilled by the way my body convulsed and she wanted to experiment with placing the electrodes on my head to see what she could make my body do and to see what brain damage would show up later. Apparently holding them, they were hand held ECT electrodes, over my occipital region might make me blind so she was stopped from that but allowed to shock me as much as she wanted in all other areas of my head. I don't think they were trying to save my sight, I think that was to make sure there was no obvious outward signs of physical damage to my body. They liked the idea of breaking me down just enough to make me helpless but leaving me aware enough to understand what was being done to and taken away from me. It did something to my language center that has in spite of my apparent ability to cogitate and use language leaves me unable to respond on some subjects or react to some things which others find upsetting and use to infer something I cannot fathom and apply negative labels to me based on that. It also limits my ability to actually describe the events of my abuse which I can visualize. I think it has something to do with the fact that at the time it was happening my language center had been damaged.
This ECT and other equipment they used to abuse was in the closed section of the hospital.
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Nov 10, 2013
 
As for the assault Aunt Dolly made up a story that I had been trying to climb and fell from the built in cabinets that were on two walls of that upper floor classroom at one end of the building.
The source of that story was something my maternal family had concocted about me. They told people that I was a climber all the time but I wasn't.
I understand now, the key family member who used her medical knowledge gained from candy striping then nursing school to come up with the idea in cahoots with her mother, gave herself away when I in all honesty told her of being paralysed in the Shelter and added I remembered being unable to move after a blow knocking me off a bed while I lived with her before the Shelter and how her sister who hit me (Karma killed her son in a carjacking. Too bad, he had become a nice young man in spite of his parentage.) and her mother and father (My Grand Parents's) let me lay in that heap on the floor unable to move for hours until she came home from school & how after she lifted me and I started to move again, she tried to confuse me as to what happened. I suspect they were working out ways to kill me and explain my death until I surprised them and moved.

This may have had something to do with my being taken into custody as it turns out the reason my neck broke so easily in that assault by a boy my age and size which I am pretty sure she also had something to do with, was that She, my maternal aunt, had been stretching my neck to weaken the muscles and discs for a long time so that she and her mother could kill me or cause paralysis in a staged fall in some park so they could sue. I was very young when this started, before age 3. She was very smart and had been working in Hospitals since before I was born when she was 15. That house is like 3-4 houses from the Tennis courts at the and of Grant or Grand street in East Orange.
I remember distinctly they would take me to strange parks far from the house and strike up conversations with people just to find ways to tell them that I was a climber even as I refused to climb for them to demonstrate this alleged fondness for climbing. They would also make a point of saying I was going to break my neck someday to these strangers too. After each time the found a person to listen and seem to buy their setup they would take me back to that park when it was empty and forcibly place me as high up as they could and try to induce me to climb down so I could fall for them. I was very weak from starvation and not being allowed to do normal things. They stopped at some point because the abuse starvation and whatever else they had done never succeeded and they didn't want any traceable dirt on their hands. I think that there was also an incident where someone had caught on that they weren't right in these incidents where they took me to strange parks. It may have been one of the times when I was screaming bloody murder to get me down and a person that knew them showed up.

So Aunt Dolly is connected to them and I think that last official ECT was sanctioned by them in a last ditch effort to cover for their own abuses of me. I don't know how much of the abuse at the Shelter they knew of or not. My aunts used their nurses uniforms to come and go from the Geriatric Center unremarked. I never believed it at the time but my abusers would always ask me why my family hated me so much and I thought it was just more abuse. Then one of them told me the reason they kept asking was that my Aunt was offering money to anyone who would hurt or kill me. I didn't buy that either. After how she reacted to my telling her and what she said that triggered all this to come up for me I understand my abusers were telling me the truth.
to be continued......

Only in America huh? Evil lives everywhere and as is always the case it only takes good men doing nothing for it to thrive.
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Nov 14, 2013
 
I won't go into details I think it is important to mention that my maternal Grandmother and one of my maternal aunts mentioned here sexually abused me when they took breaks from pulling on my neck during the neck stretching they subjected me to regularly.
There was also at least one rape at the Shelter along with almost constant verbal sexualising as a part of the mental abuse I was subjected to.
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Nov 17, 2013
 
Schooling at the Shelter was a kind of informal thing until concerned people made enough of a fuss that they started sending the kids old enough to school #10 across the street.
In that informal schooling I excelled and this pissed off nearly everyone. I was eventually separated from the class on the left side with a row or two of empty desks between me and the rest of the class and forbidden from participating. They took to telling everyone that I was stupid and claiming I was undiagnosed retarded. Two woman took it upon themselves one day to give me am IQ test. They were thrilled to find that I excelled and cold not contain their excitement. Since we were in the classroom and the others could hear them it gave the game away and one of the kids ran up to the offices of I believe it was Mr. William's who ran the Shelter at the time. I have to believe it was him as I could not imagine them allowing just anyone to order them about. Anyway he arrived just as I completed the last portion and took it and the other already scored portions of the test away and destroyed them. Apparently I would have placed very highly and that might have gotten me sent on to a better place and those holding me there (Thanks to Aunt Dolly and Mrs Janey being no show's and letting the Orderlies and older kids run the place) who wanted to destroy me as they imagined was being done to them and all black people, made sure I was not credited for my intelligence. The women tried to tell people but no one would listen just because that last section had not been graded. Seems very odd no one thought to make Mr. William's answer for that destruction or to take me to be tested again outside of the influence of people these woman were telling them were trying to falsely hold me back. I imagine they were eventually knobbled by threats, lies or inducements to forget about me.
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Nov 17, 2013
 
Yes this is all real People of Belleville. That Hospital was run as a torture chamber of defenseless children for decades because of greedy people who did not care and thought the black people you used to cover for you to not show up or show up and just not do your job were too dumb to understand what you were doing.
It was you who was dumb they knew full well and used you to do as they pleased within the boundaries of what they could be seen doing. How many did you think you could trust and think "oh they're a smart one they learned this from me." only to let them do your jobs? You were played and they ran that hospital top to bottom and controlled who lived who died and who got good or bad treatment. They were abusing children and insinuating themselves into important position in gov and society so that they could destroy white family structure by their own words to me. They wanted society filled with adults broken as children as revenge on the white man for their own terrible lives.
They felt free in speaking to me so confident were they that I would not remember and well it was also another form of torture which they could more pain they knew I would still feel but be unable to know the source of after the ECT's. I expect this was a legitimate belief since I know I was not the only child so treated and yet I have never found anyone who was there during the 60’s who remembers all this abuse and the use of drugs and ECT to abuse and cover that abuse up.
This “abuse” is not typical child abuse this was a concerted long term effort to alter the brains, stunt the development, and otherwise inflict long term physical and mental damage on children that would affect them for the rest of their lives. Lives which would be limited due to these injuries. Those acts are Crimes Against Humanity and those crimes have no Statute Of Limitation which is the only thing these folks seemed to fear. They used the ECT and drugs to wipe the children’s memories of the experience knowing full well that the damage was still there even though the memory of what caused the damage wasn’t. They feared more than anything that the children might remember and hold them to account when they were older and too big to intimidate and torture into silence.
I expect they got that knowledge to do this from the experiments they did on children under their control. They were pretty careful to choose only those children who had no one to protect them on the outside or families that stayed away so long they would not be able to notice the incremental changes such abuse inflicts. I remember them discussing this in my case because I was so remarkably resistant and able to recover after the ECT’s. They would constantly test me to see if I recalled anything and if I were to answer a question like “who is that?” with he seems like someone I know I was ECT’d or drugged again and again.
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Nov 18, 2013
 
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As you can imagine torturing a child is going to leave signs of that torture no matter how careful you are. And they, my abusers who were staff of the Shelter and Hospital were careful using what knowledge they could gain from the Geriatric Center doctors and extrapolating from the stories patients told them about how they had acquired the debilitating pains they had these people worked out ways to injure my soft tissues, tendons and ligaments. The intention I was told was to prevent me from developing properly, to inflict pain that would hobble my mind as well as body, and to ensure that I would be in pain fro my entire life. They succeeded on all fronts including leaving no physical signs of what they were doing to me.
That is until the damage became so great that my body started to deform. The most obvious problem was that my right foot turned outward and I started walking and running that way.
[One of the tortures invented by an orderly who worked with the Physical Therapist was to forcibly hold me in a sitting position on a rock placed just so under my right gluteal muscle. Whatever it did to me that muscles has never developed properly to this day and my foot/leg still rotates out if I do not consciously turn it forward.]
Then someone noticed that I did not hold my silverware properly. I had done previously. This was due to a torture being done to my right hand and thumb. This is also a connection to my maternal family as another of my aunts, a nun had started inflicting that injury on me not long before I ended up in the Shelter. The Shelter abusers did not start doing that to me until after they started asking me why my family hated me.
Then I developed a tic, which I never noticed but the kid who ended up breaking my neck did, and he got great joy from seeing me do it or making me do it by some kind of threat.
This accumulation of symptoms they couldn’t invent enough explanations for began a program of conditioning me to hide them. Using more terror and mental abuse and other children as my constant monitors, I was made to stop my tic (I’m not sure how that worked) Forced to hold silverware in spite of how painful it was and the same for my walk. This began the big brother phase, well it was all big brotherish but this is when they started monitoring and interfering with the minutia of my days. Not one moment was left unwatched or commented on and punished.
This was interspersed with long sessions of interrogation by groups of 6 or more young adults who would pretend to be engaging me to get me to open up then attack me and break me down as much as possible for what seems like hours at a time. It was a concerted attempt to completely destroy my mind as they were still trying to get me placed into the 4th floor ward where the children were abandoned.
Since then I have never been able to react properly to pain or to stop myself from doing something that hurt me because I have no idea what kind of pain is normal and what is harmful.

Side note; They had taken to leaving me for my recovery time from the ECT’s with the disabled kids who got no stimulation or any interaction except to feed and clean them after they realized my observational abilities were why I recovered so well among the regular kids. Anyway one day I recall coming too on a bench in a room with a lot of disabled and mentally ill kids. A few of them were at a table playing and I joined them then started teaching them something, I forget what. I remember that a nurse poked her head in saw me teaching and said,“you don’t belong here”. She left shouting something down the hall and I don’t remember any more. I was later told that these kids started making a fuss for me to be brought back to teach them some more. Apparently that was enough of a factor to tip the scale in favor of providing education for all disabled kids.
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Nov 24, 2013
 
No one recognises the story? Or do you and are just too cowardly to admit you know what went on there?

The things they did would have made Mengele proud that his tradition of using children for experiments to test medical ideas, the possibilities of psychological manipulation, intentionally teaching false information and methods and the long term effects of physical torture continued on.
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Well I just read all that and it took me 20 minutes, but it was not a waste of my time :) it was very interesting. Very nice patience with typing too!!
God bless!!!
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Nov 25, 2013
 
It took an hours to write most of it each time I posted. One of the effects of the described abuse is that I have very little fine motor control over my fingers unless I go very slow and still I will frequently make the same mistake several times before I get it right. One of the things they concentrated on was trying to break or prevent from taking place for the first time, the mind muscle connection or activation as it is described in weight lifting circles. They then forced my involuntary terror reflexes to make my larger muscles move thus creating a mind connection to the larger muscles but not the finer underlying ones which would develop first for a child allowed to live normally. I seem to have muscle but the underlying finer muscles which should develop first mostly did not or have developed very little.
The big muscles move easily enough as they should, the finer ones take great deliberate effort and most of them I still cannot activate. This causes all sorts of problems inflicting injury because of the muscular imbalances and making life less nice for the extra effort or limitations of choice it imposes on me.
15 minutes to write that and I thought it as soon as I read your post SilentMaid.

What brings you from Ajax, Ontario CA to read the Belleville, NJ Topix page?
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Nov 25, 2013
 
I forgot to mention the muscle development I describe was caused intentionally. They meant to do what they did to cause the problems they caused. Most of what they did, they had done to others before me that is how they knew it would work. "They" being my abusers who were mainly the Orderlies form the Hospital ward for disabled children and staff from the Essex County Emergency Children's Shelter and Geriatric Center Staff and doctors.
It was a very sick place at all levels. For all the good that was done there it was used with impunity by the scum of the earth who were able to function and do their dirty deeds under the noses of the "good" staff.
I know at least some staff who did not abuse children or patients were aware of abuse and neither said or did anything to end it out of cowardice and selfishness.
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Nov 25, 2013
 
If you take anything away from this blog attempt to get the attention of someone who can finally bring justice to me and my fellow victims, let it be this;

There was no safety. There was not one single instant of comfort or relaxation only the illusion of it which I came to know as the prelude to an escalation in the abuse. Not even at night was I allowed to feel safe and sleep well. Having been told that sleep deprivation would damage my brain they made a point of tormenting me at night by sneaking up on me and covering my mouth and nose while trying not to wake me. I have had sleep apnea all my life as the result of this. Or they would terrorise me somehow and I would awaken screaming. Did I mention the attempt to make me blind when the older kids heard depriving me of light would do it? I was locked in a closet after being posed in some uncomfortable position and warned not to move, all day for weeks on end.

If you could imagine the depravity of 1984's Big Brother and the total exerted control of every moment of life for the character's in that book just imagine those character's were children about age 6 and you have a small idea of what I was put through for years unrelentingly everyday 24/7 in that hell hole. For me in spite of the fact that I did not die, it was Auschwitz on The Second River. I am quite sure many children died and were cremated in the crematorium to hide the truth of how/why they died with convenient medical explanations for the death.
They were very good at conditioning a habit/reaction in a child or teaching children to behave a certain way that doctors would interpret as a symptom to provide cover for the after effects of the abuse. The most common cover used was to say X had Y condition or disease or was retarded to divert attention if anyone noticed something and asked. You must remember these people were Medical Staff who had some standing with those they lied to.

The people who did this still live among you as do those who were cowardly & silent witnesses to this abuse.
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Nov 25, 2013
 
I reported this when I remembered it. I spoke to Marc Ali the Essex County Prosecutor in charge of child abuse. He abused and manipulated me. Laid a guilt trip on me for having survived and making it out west. And sent me into an emotional tailspin that lasted 5 days. When I awoke on a Saturday morning I had the realization all at once that he did this to me on purpose to make me go away. He deals with victims all the time and dam well knows better than to do exactly what he did to me. So I picked up the phone and left him an angry message telling him off and saying he would not get away with trying to cover this up.
The following Monday, 7 days after my first call, I had a confused policeman knock on my front door to tell me that he had been called by Mr. Ali (3000 miles away) and asked to come to my home to tell me not to call him or his office again because he was afraid of me! The officer asked me why and I told him. He was more confused and said “Why didn’t they just take the report?” I asked him what he or the local DA would do and he said “take the report.”
So yea Belleville, Essex County nothing has changed in 47 years. Even the guy whose job title says he is to deal with child abuse is doing all he can to avoid facing this case. He doesn’t want to know the details of these crimes so that he doesn’t have to acknowledge that they are Crimes Against Humanity, which have no Statute of Limitation (SOL) on them. His current excuse is that the abuse I suffered which he never asked me to describe was beyond the SOL.
When I contacted the AG’s office to complain about him sending a cop to my home in an attempt to intimidate me from pursuing my complaint they responded by saying “what he told you is true. The SOL has passed” side stepping the complaint entirely.
When I spoke to the Sheriff’s department Detective who took my police report he told me that he was instructed by Mr. Ali not to investigate my complaint. When I tried a couple years later when there was a new detective assigned to it she looked it up then yelled at me about my having been told they were not going to investigate my case.

His office still refuses to put anything they have said to me on the phone to make me go away in writing.
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Dec 1, 2013
 
12-1-13
The Lobotomy
Another of the tortures they inflicted on me was a kind of modified Lobotomy. As I recall how the main perp explained it to his assistant perps he had learned about this by from the orderlies in the ward where they cared for disabled children.
Apparently some children were so challenging to care for the orderlies chose to chop up their brains to ease the burden of that effort to care for them on themselves. What they seemed to have developed was a kind of lobotomy that did not leave behind the obvious symptoms of black eye and bleeding. What it turned out to be was basically doing the lobotomy via the left nasal passage. By routing the ice pick or Orbitoclast up through the nostril around the outside of the bone and in at the corner of the eye then twisting and penetrating deeper in a slow deliberate fashion while watching the eyes of the victim for some sign they have hit the right spot. I guess the doctors use drugs to accomplish this now instead of letting g the orderlies do it then acting as if they haven’t seen or cannot comprehend the changes in the patient.
This was done to me out of hatred, spite and jealousy of the fact that I was going to be sent on to foster care and the instigator of this particular torture was angry that he could not see that he and the others had inflicted any kind of permanent disability on me. At the time it was deemed I was going to be fine if I was put in a nurturing home. I wasn’t, I think I have mentioned that previously here.
The memory of the event, which took place around the same time as the “you tell em it was race war” memory I mentioned above, goes like this.
I am strapped onto a gurney. There are two large boys at my shoulders, one on each leg and a boy on my right arm and a girl on my left arm. The 7th person was one who had learned this from the Orderlies. That girl was usually assigned to be my protector; she hated me and was pretty nasty about it. She was a 1st class dissembler. I have a story about her for later. In this story she ends up looking ok by comparison to the others involved all of whom I do not think I had ever seen before of the memory of them had been wiped with the ECT’s and drugs being used to abuse me and hide that abuse at the same time.
Anyway they are wheeling me around trying to find a place and eventually settle on a room full of old disused or abandoned medical equipment. We are packed in very tightly. There is a bunch of hemming and hawing to terrorise me, and then the process begins with instructions on how important it is to hold me absolutely still. The girl started to freak out as the director of torture started working the ice pick around the bone in my nose. I have the impression (and I give her no credit at all for it) that she had thought this was all just another organized terrorizing until she saw they meant to actually lobotomize me. She they stopped in mid process to focus on her and eventually scared her enough to stay and continue to help with threats about what they would say about her culpability, which is the only thing I believe she was in fear about not what they were doing to me.
The process continued with him leaning over me the two men at my shoulders holding me head still and the man with the ice pick screaming at me to open my eyes each time I closed them trying to go to my happy place. I didn’t know that was what I was doing but I do now. He kept at it twisting shoving and looking intensely into my eyes. Finally after an eternity, which I expect only took a few minutes in reality he announces proudly “There it is!” and he with drew the instrument though I do not remember it coming out.
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Dec 1, 2013
 
Everyone else left happy with themselves, another blow against the white man accomplished. The girl was left with me. She seemed happy now too and I kept asking her what was different and she kept telling me “nothing”. But since I have remembered I remember nothing was ever right again after that. My mind was no longer what it had been, I couldn’t read people and I didn’t put this together until after I remembered but I no longer had real time understanding of my own feelings. Everything was and still is on a delay now. We could have a conversation and I would forget what we said in 15 minutes but if in two weeks you gave me a few clues I could repeat that conversation back to you as if I had always known it.
They had finally taken away what they hated so much about me. Which was a fantastic ability to remember things on first sight or hearing of them, to think, and to draw correct conclusions using that memory and my innate ability to reason.

How could that or any of the other abuse I have described here be outside any Statute of Limitation?
How could anyone see it as anything other than a crime Against Humanity?

The story about that girl; She was there almost as long as I was. This takes place near the beginning of my time and may have played a part in the use of ECT to wipe my memory. As with most black folks at the time and every black person at the Shelter she spoke what has recently been dubbed “ebonics”(That is not a real thing, it is what ignorant and uneducated people of all races do with language when they are left to their own devices. As you can imagine not being able to use language correctly severely limits what a person can do with their mind which is otherwise perfectly fine.)
Anyway one day we went to what must have been an ice cream or food truck and she stepped up to the window to order and spoke in perfectly enunciated and grammatically correct English. I was shocked. Almost immediately I started calling her out in it and I see now her face was full of fear. At the time I was a child and had been getting so abused for speaking correctly and not being able to understand those who did not I was defending myself. I told this to several people and it was not received well as there was a very active anti intellectual culture among the Black people living and working there. Not long after this I think the ECT’s started. I do not know if there is a connection but to my mind there is. I know that she at least on a couple of occasions said I remembered something when I hadn’t just to get me wiped again. The other kids who monitored me and kept up the Big Brother environment I lived in did so as well. Most of the ECT’s and drugging prior to the attack were done because of this sort of false report by people who were acting out on me.
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Dec 1, 2013
 
Oh yea I have an MRI of my brain that shows a mass in the left nostril in the right place for the piece of bone they broke through.
At the time it was taken I had not remembered these events yet. The MRI was for an involuntary tic that I have developed. The Radiologist called it a cyst in the report but the ENT doctor I went to could not find a cyst.
When I remembered I realised that the MRI of my brain showed the proof. That mass shows up as all white which if I remember my schooling correctly is either very dense scar tissue or bone. Maybe partly both.
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Dec 1, 2013
 
Not left nostril Left Sinus.

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