I don't care if u believe me or not. If u don't believe i really loved u & still do then that is your mistake. I would like to believe u are smarter than that. U hurt me severly if u can't see that by all things i've posted then i don't guess u ever will. I tried every way possible except coming to see u to get u to listen to me, u want to cut me down with negativity & hurt me even more with always ignoring me. I really & honestly don't know what is going on in your life. I hope one day God gives me the will to stop thinking of u. I get on my knees every night & beg him to help me find some peace, to be able to happy again, to forget u. He hasn't done that for me yet & the last 14 months have really been a nightmare for me. I don't know if u will ever realize what u meant to me. I am done searching & hoping that u will reach out to me. I don't know who & what to believe in anymore because i believed in u, i thought u were better than that but it's clear your not. I hope moving away will be my answer, it's the only thing i have left to do that may give me some hope. I never gave up on u, but u did me. I don't wish ill of u either. I still remember your smile as clear as anything. I wish i could've seen u one more time to get some closure. I don't know what else to say but i won't ever bother u in any way what so ever anymore.