Thanks to every one who has been sincere. Things are starting to look up for me. I have met someone who is helping me & thank God for him. Yes I have a very sick daughter & now with the help from this new person it is giving me strength.
Just know others (including me) have been there.
I buried just about my entire "large" family, by age 22, so I know all about death.
I was also an atheist after that untill age 29, when I was awaken from my sleep, and drawn by the holy spirit.
I'm now 41, and know wothout a doubt, that there is a God.
many times we never think of Him, untill we are living in a life, that we wished we had never made.
Then we want God to fix it all.
Pain from loosing someone we thought was our soul mate can be devestating.
Just remember, anytime you look to any person for your happiness, that you Will be let down, sometimes hard!
God will not let you down, Sometimes He don't "fix" it like we wish He would, but if He did, we would do the same thing over and over.
Pain is not always a bad thing.
I have been through my share!
May God bless you!
May you bless God :)