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Manchester, TN

#143 Sep 27, 2012
Just came across this topic and I just wanted to say keep it up! Continue to surround yourself with supportive friends and family. Set goals to occupy your mind and free time. Ever wanted to run a 5k or take a specific class? Reward yourself with something positive like extra time to workout or read or maybe spend some money on new running shoes. Have no idea who you are, but so proud of you and human resiliance.
bn thru it

Herndon, VA

#144 Sep 27, 2012
NeedHelp wrote:
Well I screwed up, it was getting bad and I can't afford to loose my job so I ended up taking one this morning so I have to start all over. This cycle sucks and I'm so depressed over it all. I tried the suggestions and they seemed to help but not enough. I was having such a hard time trying to work, I'm not giving up so I'll try again.
look ive been thru this and i feel for u..best advice is find bout 3 suboxone take 3 days off work aand do it! dont trade 1 habbit for another after 3 days then ween down from ur sub! alot easier to do and just takn subs 3 days u wont withdrawl from it! it will help alot with ur symtoms! this is the best way!
amen

Jefferson City, TN

#145 Sep 30, 2012
NeedsHelp wrote:
Hello all, thanks for the continued support. What kinda work am I in? Well I am in upper managment, i have several employees who work under my supervision and a business owner depending on me. I am discusted at my position and my addiction. I can assure u my addiction has in no way affected my position nor has it ever prompted me to become unethical or untrustworthy. Like I mentioned before I am a functional addict who has had this secret for some time. By functional I mean I have been on a maintance dose for the last few yrs. if ur unaware of what that means, I don't get high from the pills anymore. Where I have used appropriately as needed it caused my brain chemistry to become dependent on the pill to feel normal and when I don't have them I suffer. So the only pills I've taken was so I could function and appear normal to those around me. There are many different addicts and I represent the white collar professional who has this secret side. When u go through town u can look among the people around u, one in 4 is an addict or is dealing with knowing an addict. I could be ur boss, ur business partner, ur lawyer, or any other profession. Addiction knows no stranger and there are many professionals who suffer with it to. You don't have to be living on the streat, in or out of jail, or stealing to support ur habit to be an addict. Ask urself the next time ur around people u don't know if u think they may have a problem? Many people who meet me would probably never have guessed I was in this situation, with that said please be kind to ur neighbor and be thoughtful how u treat others because u may help someone who could be on the verge of suicide and not even know it. I'm not proud of where I am in my life but I know I'm walking a new path and I can restore myself, I have came so far and don't ever want to look back. And the thing is people close to me who don't know about this I hope will never have known the difference. That is why I started this post because I need to feel comfort and support from those who may have gone down this road, I can't get it any other way and it is a very good part of recovery. Thanks for listening to me ramble and I hope I may have inspired someone to quit for there self. It is worth all the pain and suffering to put addiction in ur past. And please I hope u guys understand I am in no way trying to brag or be boastful about my profession or position in life. If u know a professional there is a very good chance they Don't live the fairy tell life there showing the public, we never know what goes on behind the closed doors of there personal life. I'm not saying in no way that all professionals don't live a great life I'm sure there are several who have the picture perfect life and no no wrong, however chances are there few and far between.
I have been following you from first post,I also was in upper mgmt. and tried to be a functional addict but after 20 years it wore me down.As you say you never know who is alongside of you,I know so many addicts.....teachers,lawyer,po liceman and it goes on and on.When you decide to stop you have to give up your pill buddies and after awhile they quit coming around if they know you truly have given it up.I also have been clean and it is a daily struggle,the worst is over but each day is a test....good luck my friend I am still praying for you each night that I lay down ...
chumor

Jefferson City, TN

#146 Oct 2, 2012
take it a day at a time,praying for you too
NeedsHelp

Boiling Springs, SC

#147 Oct 4, 2012
Well it's been a while since I've updated. The devil is working overtime to get me back, I have a bad toothache so I went to a wonderful female dentist in town, Amanda Campbell, we'll I need a rootcanal but can't get in until the end of nov. I told the dr about my worries about the pain and pain meds and was honest about my past issues. She was wonderful and wrote me some tram which I feel I can use for its purpose and hopefully not have any wd experiance. She was so kind and such a professional I would recommend her to anyone. Please wish me luck with the meds from this and I also told her I would deal with the pain until she gets to do the rc and asked her not to give me anything until then unless I just can't stand it. Thank u guys for ur support and if u don't mind please keep me in ur prayers I really am in a dark place in my life and need whatever support I can get.
Seriously

United States

#148 Oct 11, 2012
NeedsHelp wrote:
Well it's been a while since I've updated. The devil is working overtime to get me back, I have a bad toothache so I went to a wonderful female dentist in town, Amanda Campbell, we'll I need a rootcanal but can't get in until the end of nov. I told the dr about my worries about the pain and pain meds and was honest about my past issues. She was wonderful and wrote me some tram which I feel I can use for its purpose and hopefully not have any wd experiance. She was so kind and such a professional I would recommend her to anyone. Please wish me luck with the meds from this and I also told her I would deal with the pain until she gets to do the rc and asked her not to give me anything until then unless I just can't stand it. Thank u guys for ur support and if u don't mind please keep me in ur prayers I really am in a dark place in my life and need whatever support I can get.
I'm not on topix a lot but Ive followed this thread from the beginning. Although I dont know you, I celebrate everytime Ive seen you post & your still fighting. This fight will continue, but eventually, over time it DOES get a lil easier. As Ive said before, the only options you have if you go backwards is to die an addict or go through all the withdrawal again at some point. That thought is what keeps me going. I wanted to keep sharing it with you. You have been amazingly strong, I applaude all you've already been through & what is to come. Look back at how much time you ALREADY have behind you, CLEAN. Before you know it, you'll look back & you'll have a year, two, five years behind you! Keep it up. Sadly, some addicts dont have any support from family, or spouse. They cannot afford the supplements the body needs to endure wd. Thank God that you have those advantages, thank God you have a loving spouse who's been supportive instead of bailing. Look at the advantages you've had in recovery & count your blessings. That may help you to keep going as well. Gods with you for sure! Out of curiosity, are you still taking anything for energy, sleeplessness, etc...? I still have problems with those things so Im looking to find something to help. Energy especially is a problem for me. Going to the dentist can be an obstacle becuz your teeth get bad when uve taken lots of pain meds, & I know theres been times that Ive had such EXTREME pain and absesses that I had no choice but to take pain meds. Just be careful & ALWAYS be honest with any dentist or doctor you see. Lord knows Ive ran up on some very closed minded, judgemental people in healthcare situations but you just gotta move on to a different provider if need be. Dont let it cause you to be dishonest. Now days, I do not discuss my addiction with any secretaries, nurses, or other staff in a Dr or dentist office, I wait til I see the doctor & discuss it with them only. Makes it a lil easier. Anyway, you just KEEP GOING!! You really have no idea the lives your touching, & the inspiration you've became, to complete strangers. Imagine what you could do out right.:) Keep it up, I'll be following you So dont forget your genuine supporters on here. God Bless you & your family. I have to attend a funeral tonight for my 29yr old cousin that passed away due to infection & health problems from being an IV drug user. This will be the second funeral in the past two mths Ive attended with someone dying from addiction issues. Keep all addicts in your prayers I always do Remember that what your doing is AMAZING!!
NeedsHelp

United States

#149 Oct 17, 2012
Hello everyone sorry for the dely in posting updates I have been busy at work and just got back from an out of town business meeting. I have horrible news, just as I expected as soon as I finally feel like I am free from pain pills I was in an accident. I was with someone and as we were driving down a country road a deer jumped out in front of us and the person driving had a natural response to avoid this deer, well in doing so we lost control and flipped 2 times. Were ok just some bumps bruses and a broken elbow is what I got. I had shots of pain meds in the Er and they sent me home with perk 10s. I am doing my best to control the pain and not take more than needed however I am worried to death I'm gunna go through all the wd again. I figured something would happen to me after I have done all this work and gotten so far it's just my luck and the devil trying to keep me locked up in bondage over this addiction. I will say this tho I have done well to keep my addictive habits at bay with these meds, taking as directed or less. Well gotta run it's hard typing with my bad arm. Thanks for ur support and wish me luck and prayers are always welcome.
customer

Jefferson City, TN

#150 Oct 17, 2012
NeedsHelp wrote:
Well it's been a while since I've updated. The devil is working overtime to get me back, I have a bad toothache so I went to a wonderful female dentist in town, Amanda Campbell, we'll I need a rootcanal but can't get in until the end of nov. I told the dr about my worries about the pain and pain meds and was honest about my past issues. She was wonderful and wrote me some tram which I feel I can use for its purpose and hopefully not have any wd experiance. She was so kind and such a professional I would recommend her to anyone. Please wish me luck with the meds from this and I also told her I would deal with the pain until she gets to do the rc and asked her not to give me anything until then unless I just can't stand it. Thank u guys for ur support and if u don't mind please keep me in ur prayers I really am in a dark place in my life and need whatever support I can get.
She is a great dentist. I have had great experience there I go every 6 months for cleanings. She is down to earth.
NeedsHelp

Greenwood, SC

#151 Oct 18, 2012
Well I put the script down and am not taking anymore I think I can deal with the pain now so wish me luck on no wd symptoms. I'm so proud of myself for not abusing this script and I pray every day I can continue to progress. I still have my depressive days where I'm not sure life is worth living. I sit and think about how bad the world is and how I can't wait til it's all over. Oh well I guess I'll go when it's my turn. I'm going to work on quitting smoking next so if anyone has any good suggestions please let me know. Thank u all
NeedsHelp

Greenwood, SC

#152 Oct 19, 2012
It seems as if I have lost most if not all of my supporters? Well I guess that's what I get for not having regular updates. I'm feeling pretty depressed lately and don't know why. I've seem to lost the will to go on so I'm gunna just take my meds and hope they start working soon. What a pathetic excuse for a life I live. It seems that those pills did infact steal my life from me and it's a struggle to get it back.
Rolf

Morristown, TN

#153 Oct 19, 2012
Keep on keepin' on. Man, you can do this. Do NOT give up.
i just love it

Morristown, TN

#154 Oct 19, 2012
Whoo man!! We are still here dude! Don't give up! You know that is not what you really want to do. You have came to far and you don't want to start over. I am really pulling for you. I guess
for a selfish reason but I just want to have hope that the people I care about will have a chance to quit when they are ready. I don't know anyone who has made it as far as you have. If you see this will you let me know that you are still in the fight? My prayers are with you!
I care

Knoxville, TN

#155 Oct 19, 2012
NeedsHelp wrote:
It seems as if I have lost most if not all of my supporters? Well I guess that's what I get for not having regular updates. I'm feeling pretty depressed lately and don't know why. I've seem to lost the will to go on so I'm gunna just take my meds and hope they start working soon. What a pathetic excuse for a life I live. It seems that those pills did infact steal my life from me and it's a struggle to get it back.
Your brain needs time to heal. It was used to getting the chemicals from the meds and now it is learning how to function without them. Most people if not all people go through depression during detox. This could last up to 6 months, maybe longer. You may want to ask your doctor for something to take for depression. You had also mentioned that you want to stop smoking. You could try taking Wellbutrin. You can use it for depression and as an aid for smoking cessation. For most patients that are going through a stressful time, it's not a good idea to stop smoking. I would try just try smoking less for now.

You had mentioned that you had a job, wife and kid(s). You are very blessed to have these things in your life. Please don't lose the will to go on. You have people that care about you. They need you as much as you need them. If you are struggling with severe depression, please see your doctor. Trying to come off an addiction alone is very dangerous. I want to see you succeed and I believe that you will!:)
Encourager

Morristown, TN

#156 Oct 20, 2012
I am also on here, praying and rooting for you..I am also an addict, I used subboxone to help me, so if things get to bad, you might want to try it. I have been off pain pills for over a year now. You can do it, prayer helps. Read your Bible, and pray. You can do it..I know other people also that have gotten off. Give yourself time. One of the problems addicts have is impatience. We want it now, so learn to be patient. It is a growing process. You learn a lot about yourself as you are getting to know yourself sober. Do you work on Sundays? Find a good church to go to and worship on Sunday. That will help. Support from reading, listening to TBN, you will hear a lot of stories from overcomers on that station. You can do it! I believe in you! I know you can!!
Jeannie

White Pine, TN

#157 Nov 5, 2012
NeedsHelp wrote:
Well I put the script down and am not taking anymore I think I can deal with the pain now so wish me luck on no wd symptoms. I'm so proud of myself for not abusing this script and I pray every day I can continue to progress. I still have my depressive days where I'm not sure life is worth living. I sit and think about how bad the world is and how I can't wait til it's all over. Oh well I guess I'll go when it's my turn. I'm going to work on quitting smoking next so if anyone has any good suggestions please let me know. Thank u all
How are you doing, my friend?
NeedsHelp

Sharon, SC

#158 Dec 7, 2012
Hello all or those that remember me, well breaking my arm proved to be my relaps downfall, I messed up and picked them up again and started using every day. So outta fustration I decided to go out of state to a rehab center, it wasn't as bad as I thought however it was very helpful. I'm in after care and I feel much stronger. Been clean for 45 days and I'm sure I'll be ok from now on. Thanks for all the support I recieved and remember if u or someone u knows is suffering with this it is very hard to do it alone but can be done, just in my case I needed more help that what I could help myself.
NeedsHelp

United States

#159 Dec 3, 2013
Just came across this post and well its interesting to read how times have changed, FYI to those who may remember, I am clean now and it has been a wonderful transformation. It hasn't been easy but as of June 2013 I've been clean and I'm finally past this TERRIABLE ordeal. Thanks to all who supported me.

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