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Need to know

Somerset, KY

#1 Sep 6, 2008
Well, as I was growing up my mom was always working. She was working like 14 hours every day and plus over time. So, the only person left in the house to watch me was my dad. Ever since I can remember he always touched me. It happened so often I just thought it was normal.
One of the earliest things I can remember was when he took me into him and my moms bathroom and pulled out his penis. He just asked me for a massage. He said, "Here put your hand on it like this, don't be afraid". I gave him a weird look but he just laughed and pulled my hands and placed my fingertips around it. He pressed my fingertips against it while moving it in circles. I remember him saying, "see, just a massage" and he smiled. He let go and told me, "here you try it" so I just stood there giving him what I thought as a massage. I was like 5 at the time. He would always make me get naked in front of him and he would always touch me all over and kiss me all over. I remember this other time when I was about 6 or 7 and he had me go to his room like usual.(wesince but he took off all my clothes. He took off his pants and sat down on the edge of the bed and picked me up and sat me on top of him facing him. He started to feel me all over, then all of a sudden stopped and pulled out his penis. He put his penis touching my vagina and had me jack him off again.
The last big memory I have about him was when my mom had went to Thailand to go visit our family. She was gone for a week or so. I was in the 8th grade so I was about 13 or so. Well he brought me into his room and again like usual had me take off my clothes. Well he took them off of me, but anyways he did the usual, kiss me all over and what not.ugh.but anyways yeah I remember that he turned me over on my stomach which was different.I guess he took out his penis because he got on top of me and I felt something kinda wet touch my butt cheeks. I gasped and he abruptly got up and went straight to the bathroom. I was so shocked and nervous that I just got all my clothes back on and went to the living room and started watching tv acting as if everything was normal.
did it this to me. He just looked me straight in the eyes and his exact words were, "I didn't do anything wrong, I just showed you that I loved you", it hurt me so bad...
My parents are now divorced and I live with my brother. It's hard to talk to my mom and be nice because I still have a grudge towards her. My dad got sentenced earlier this year. He got sentenced to 26 and a half years.
I still have memories like anyone would. I have a fear of older men, a strong fear and just ugh, it gives me anxiety and gets me really nervous and sad because of this. I used to cut myself and everything. I was really bad in school and have wasted my first two years of high school. But now I'm just trying to correct my mistakes and live my life.
I'm still kinda stuck in the past...but am making progress. I just hope that any other girl that's reading this that may be going through this will tell a trusted person and get help. I love my dad but he was just using me...and it really hurts to know that this whole time he was just using me. He always told me I was such a great daughter and I was so beautiful. He always isolated me from my brothers and now I figure it's because he didn't want that secret to spill out to them.
Well, I thank you all that have read this and I admire all of those who have gotten through this and have now restarted their lives. I'm on the road to recovery and am almost fully to that point where I believe I will fully be living in the present, not my past.
My life is no longer a lie!
Tring to help

Somerset, KY

#2 Sep 6, 2008
INCEST happens everyday, it could be your dad, brother, mother, aunt, uncle. It does happen and it is not your fault. If it is happening to you please tell.
not my fault

London, KY

#3 Sep 6, 2008
The same thing basically happened to me but it was another family member not my father. It started when I was really young and went on and on until I was a teenager. I was threatened not to tell. I was scared so I didnt. But I finally told. Theres no doubt that if this happens to anyone they need to tell right away but in my case it seemed to make things worse. My family seemed to take sides. A few made me feel like it was my fault or didnt believe me like such a thing couldnt happen. Or as if I was making it up for attention. For years I wished I had never told. Now that Im older Im glad I did. I was in the right 100%. Nothing ever happened to the person who did this to me but he knows who he is and he has to live with what he done. Its really hard for me to leave it all in the past or block it out of my mind when I see him out from time to time and he has his own daughters with him. It makes me wonder if he is doing things to them. I pray to God above he isnt. And if he is I just hope and pray they do the right thing!
dab

London, KY

#4 Sep 6, 2008
I was never touched by a family member, but I had a similar incident happen one time. I turned it around in my head that I was in the wrong place at the wrong time, and it was my fault. I was 10. I rationalized and internalized every bit of it. I did tell on him. Nothing ever happened to him. It was just recently that I have been able to work through it in my head, and realize that it was not my fault, and he was a dirty old man. I will say a little prayer for you all that have posted, because this can change a person's life. Analyzing the situation(s) and relationship with the abuser over and over will consume you and ruin your life and future relationships. You are stronger than that, I can tell by the posts. Just know that you have someone that is praying for you.
please tell

Somerset, KY

#5 Sep 6, 2008
Have you ever talked to his daughters? Maybe you should, i know it is hard. I have been through alot of the same thing, i told and some of my family turned on me, but i am glad i told. I just wish someone would have talked to me. There are so many kids that this is happening to. I just want them to know they need to tell. It is not there fault. They may feel threatened or scared, but no one will hurt them for telling. I always felt so ashamed and i should not have. Now that i am older i realize it was not my fault. If we post our stories, maybe some child will read this and realize they are not the only one that has had this to happen to them and they need to tell. God Bless
mee again

Somerset, KY

#6 Sep 7, 2008
Child sexual abuse is a form of child abuse in which a child is abused for the sexual gratification of an adult or older adolescent.[1][2] In addition to direct sexual contact, child sexual abuse also occurs when an adult indecently exposes their genitals to a child, asks or pressures a child to engage in sexual activities, displays pornography to a child, or uses a child to produce child pornography.[3][1][4]

Effects of child sexual abuse include depression,[5] post-traumatic stress disorder,[6] anxiety,[7] propensity to re-victimization in adulthood,[8] and physical injury to the child, among other problems.[9].... Sexual abuse by a family member is a form of incest, and can result in more serious and long-term psychological trauma, especially in the case of parental incest.[10]

.....Approximately 20% to 25% of women and 5% to 15% of men were sexually abused when they were children.[11][12][13][14][15] Most sexual abuse offenders are acquainted with their victims; approximately 30% are relatives of the child, most often fathers, uncles or cousins; around 60% are other acquaintances such as friends of the family, babysitters, or neighbors; strangers are the offenders in approximately 10% of child sexual abuse cases. Most child sexual abuse is committed by men; women commit approximately 14% of offenses reported against boys and 6% of offenses reported against girls.[11] Most offenders who abuse pre-pubescent children are pedophiles,[16][17] however a small percentage do not meet the diagnostic criteria for pedophilia.[18]
...If you are being abused please tell.
Vigilante Justice

Somerset, KY

#7 Sep 7, 2008
All adults convicted of child molestation, should be hanged for the rest of the pervs to see that we won't tolerate this unacceptable behavior from these freaks.
Melinda

Somerset, KY

#8 Sep 14, 2008
Need to Know, your life story just breaks my heart. I wish that you would have had more memorable memories of being young. Your dad seems like a very mean man who didn't have the right to even raise you. My prayers are with you. I hope that you keep looking to the future and forget about your fathers in ability to raise you and the hurt he has caused you. Your mother should have realized something was going on but I guess she was never home though. I will pray for you sweetie. You deserved so much more in life and you should have been protected not abused. 6
Need to know

London, KY

#9 Sep 14, 2008
Melinda wrote:
Need to Know, your life story just breaks my heart. I wish that you would have had more memorable memories of being young. Your dad seems like a very mean man who didn't have the right to even raise you. My prayers are with you. I hope that you keep looking to the future and forget about your fathers in ability to raise you and the hurt he has caused you. Your mother should have realized something was going on but I guess she was never home though. I will pray for you sweetie. You deserved so much more in life and you should have been protected not abused. 6
Thank you so much for your concern i just want to help others. Maybe someone being abused will read my story and relize they are not the only one, and they need to tell. Incest happens more than people know.
whoami

London, KY

#10 Sep 14, 2008
These story's or so SAD, breaks my heart. Its not what a childhood should be. The loving memories of being a child should be of happy times love and playing. NO child should have these momories. I hope and pray each one of you have found a place in your hearts to move forward and make a happy life for yourselves. May God be in your lives to show you that you are NOT at fault and find the peace and love you so deserve.These men will be healt accountable for there action before God himself.
Blessed

London, KY

#11 Sep 14, 2008
I had a very sad childhood. I was molested by a family memeber. For a long time i was a very angry person. I did not trust anyone, i was literly driving myself crazy. I even tried taking my own life. Luckly God was with me through it all. He was there for me even when i was not there for him. I know my abuser will some day face judgement and i hope he is saved at that time i really do. I hated him for so long if i prayed about him it was for him to die. Since giving my life to Jesus i have peace. Now i pray that my abuser will find Jesus, because i do not want ANYONE going to HELL. Now God wants me to take something bad and make it good. He wants me to share my story and try to help others.
unbelievable

London, KY

#12 Sep 14, 2008
i feel bad for heather hancock. she has messed around with her dad for years for money.thats why marilyn left him. now heathers dope habit is so bad now her dad can barely afford her. ive been close to this family for years and never knew this was going on. they need some counseling.
nice

London, KY

#13 Sep 14, 2008
unbelievable wrote:
i feel bad for heather hancock. she has messed around with her dad for years for money.thats why marilyn left him. now heathers dope habit is so bad now her dad can barely afford her. ive been close to this family for years and never knew this was going on. they need some counseling.
You should not be using peoples names.... If this is true Heather needs to press charges against her dad and then get some intense counseling..... I will be praying for her.....If this really has happened to her, then she has turned to drugs to numb the pain..... I was molested, but i am not letting it get the best of me.... If you dwell on all the bad and play poor pitful me you will never get anywhere... Please from now on do not use names. God Bless
kln

Toccoa, GA

#14 Sep 15, 2008
I have to ask, did you report this abuse to one of your teachers that you might have had in 7th and potentially 8th grade? Did you leave the school in your 8th grade year?
I Am Sorry For Your Hurt

Somerset, KY

#15 Sep 16, 2008
I have never dealt with type of abuse in my life, but my heart goes out to you. I broke down in tears when I read this. Things like this make me angry, and I think people like this need to castrated like they do animals, because to me they are no better than animals. There is just not enought justice in this world and too many people get by with this stuff easily. I went through physically abuse and emotional/mental abuse as well. I sought counceling to help me, and there is one thing I have learned through it all: YOU HAVE TO FORGIVE FOR YOUR OWN SANITY AND LEAN ON GOD FOR HELP. BUT MORE IMPORTANTEDLY, ABUSE OF ANY KIND!...IS NOT THE ABUSEE FAULT!!! IT IS THE ABUSER BECAUSE THEY CHOSE TO DO SO. Abuse is not love!
I Am Sorry For Your Hurt

Somerset, KY

#16 Sep 16, 2008
And the whole castration thing does seem harsh, but it just upsets me and makes me angry. Children are gifts of God, they should be loved and cherished...and if anyone cannot give me the love they deserve...in the right manner...then let someone else have them who will.
I Am Sorry For Your Hurt

Somerset, KY

#17 Sep 16, 2008
If anyone cannot give THEM the love they deserve....(correction to the above last statement)
i agree

London, KY

#18 Sep 16, 2008
Being a survior i feel that abusers should be castrated. Some countrys really do this. It would make pers. think twice before they touched a kid.
who

London, KY

#19 Sep 16, 2008
kln wrote:
I have to ask, did you report this abuse to one of your teachers that you might have had in 7th and potentially 8th grade? Did you leave the school in your 8th grade year?
Who are you refering to?
mad

East Bernstadt, KY

#20 Oct 7, 2008
The people that do this are sick. They need to be put under the jail. No they need to be throwed in jail and let people molest them.

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