Thankfully, I threw all that away at age 17 but then got immersed with a New Age guru.JOEL COOL DUDE, watch out, don't defame Jews, Jews are people of god, they say so themselves in the bible witch they invented themselves :
I threw away that bastard of a guru as well and am now free albeit with serious damage to mind, emotions and nerves.
I hope I recover soon....
I am now an atheist who goes by reason and evidence and everything in life, science and yogic experience points towards energy/matter as constituting the basis of the universe.
I have now even dumped the whole lot of stressful discipline leading to yogic experiences - yogic experience are the various brain states that get activated
The heightened brain states that've arisen in me are continuing due to concentrated past endeavors in yogic discipline but now that I have thrown away everything, including yoga, I want to see how long these heightened brain states (with their concomitant energetic mechanisms at work in the nervous system) last....