I am Mike's mother. For those of you who have coountributed to this site in a positive way, thank you! It is very healing for me to hear those comments and see the impact he has had in everyone's life. For those of you who don't know him, for those of you who find it impossible to believe this was his first time, this is for you. Michael did not live with me between the ages of 9 and 14. He went through some rough times then that I did not know about. And by the way, he wasn't taken away because I was a bad parent.Specifics cannot be gotten into, but it was not like that. When he finally stood up and said he was going to come live with me there had already been some things that he had chose to do. I knew during those years something was going on, I tried to talk to him. I arranged for counseling, through the church and secular. He would never open up. The Monday after he died he was scheduled to get a full evaluation including mental health. He had apparently developed the habit of huffing in the years he was not with me. The people responsible for how that went down will never have a clue as to what that did to Michael or his brother. In any case, my son came to live with me all closed up emotionally, shy, introverted. In the two years he was with me he blossomed into this beautiful, random, funny, smart young man. In the two years he gained the respect of a small town and impacted all of our lives in ways so unrealized until he died. I feel it is important for you to know that the investigating officer educated me on how these kids do huffing and helped me in this area. I did research on line of my own, seeking to understand, other than two incidents when I was in my late teens, I have never drank or done drugs. So I still struggle understanding. In that research I found a listing of "signs". Michael had none of them. Ever. This is how we concluded, along with other info, that he was not habitually huffing. There are just times that things don't make sense, don't measure up, we can't understand. That is ok with me, because I know there is a God in control and I don't have to understand everything. He does. He has done many things thru our losing Mike that may have never been accomplished otherwise. While there is not a day that goes by that I do not miss my boy and his antics, and wouldn't give anything to have him back, I trust God and His infinite wisdom and find great comfort in Him. I know that Mike is in Heaven, he made a public proclamation of faith the Mon before he died. This gives me incredible comfort. May you all know God in the ways I have come to know Him, may you all experience His goodness and mercy. God bless you all, even you that could not contribute in a positive way.