It took me years of therapy to understand the source of my PTSD. It was a result of the guilt I felt for the things I did while serving my "country". I directed anger toward myself for following the orders of my superiors. Think Callley/Meadlo.Thanks nightwatchman. You're absolutely right. Thanks for your service as well brother. PTSD. Neither Ole Ollie or CIC delegates my movements. My first line does. The same soldiers who are by my side. The Army has given my family more than any civilian job I ever had did. Granted my paychecks were pitiful in the beginning but the benefits are second to none. Found that out first hand with my second daughter who had breathing problems when an infant. I'm not going to lie, sure, soldiers like myself are eager to do the job that they are constantly trained to do day in and day out. But keep in mind that seeing our family every night back home sure beats the price of war.
Someday we will have globalized social justice. Then nobody will be required to become a mercenary to provide for family.