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YouSaidYouWouldN everLeave

Melrose Park, IL

#1 Jan 11, 2018
I don't understand how you can be so mean. I don't understand why you can't talk to me. I don't understand why you will follow me around but not talk to me. I don't understand wtf is going on. I don't understand any of this. I don't understand how you hate me one minute and say terrible things the next. I don't understand why you continue to hurt me.I care about you and you mess with my head. Why can't you just have a conversation it's so confusing.
DR Phil

Alton, IL

#2 Jan 12, 2018
You need help. That is why. You are messed up in the head
YouSaidYouWouldN everLeave

Melrose Park, IL

#3 Jan 12, 2018
And your not? You hide it better is all. Did it ever occur to you my head is messed up cause people like you mess with it. You very well could be the worst I have met. I never saw any of this coming and I have no problem admitting you hurt me but you have brought this to a totally different level and you're hateful I will be relieved when this passes. Just saying.
Windowlicker

United States

#4 Jan 12, 2018
Let me go
YouSaidYouWouldN everLeave

Melrose Park, IL

#5 Jan 12, 2018
Ok
Terry

Collinsville, IL

#6 Jan 12, 2018
YouSaidYouWouldNeverLeave wrote:
And your not? You hide it better is all. Did it ever occur to you my head is messed up cause people like you mess with it. You very well could be the worst I have met. I never saw any of this coming and I have no problem admitting you hurt me but you have brought this to a totally different level and you're hateful I will be relieved when this passes. Just saying.
Get some help. You are mental.
Windowlicker

United States

#7 Jan 12, 2018
I want to feel alive again
YouSaidYouWouldN everLeave

Chicago, IL

#8 Jan 12, 2018
Well I can't help you with that I apparently can't help you with anything. The fact of the matter is this SUCKS and I guess neither one of us turned out to be the person we thought the other was. I don't try to make it harder for you like you do me. I must have misread all those signals my bad.
YouSaidYouWouldN everLeave

Evansville, IN

#9 Jan 12, 2018
Maybe if you stop clocking me stop listening to conversations that you shouldn't hear in the first place how super invasive is that and keep your ass put where you belong like your own town maybe then you will feel alive again you are the phsyco not me. I am having a tough time dealing because I don't want to believe everything you ever said was a lie that is what makes me crazy I trusted you. Enough said.
Windowlicker

United States

#10 Jan 12, 2018
I donít lie to anyone but the police!!! Ask my momma, I ainít scared to hurt her feelings or any one elseís for that matter! So sorry, the fool was you for believing yourself to make you feel better! Iíll never be able to understand why, but I donít think Iím meant to! Enjoy your life! Please donít make this hard! I donít want anything but mine and my childís sanity! Please, Iíll never be the person iv become lately! I will eventually be happy, we will be together! With so much less suffering and many more struggles! But thatís whatís makes it worth it! Youíll never understand what you have done to me and took away from me! Youíll never even care, Iíll find away to get over this and move on! I have someone looking up to me, Iím going to be a better role model! Iím going to be her hero!
Windowlicker

United States

#11 Jan 12, 2018
quit fronting, and be real instead of looking into my eyes while you act like this is ok! The fact that you will just ride this out no matter who gets hurt makes you go from beat man I know to Iíll keep that to myself! I donít wish pain on anyone, itís all iv ever known. My child is innocent and didnít deserve what her daddy did and especially not what you the volenteer hero want to be! Thatís completely immoral and cruel! we will be out of your hair soon I promise. That way you canít say I never did anything for you! This was the last thing I
YouSaidYouWouldN everLeave

Evansville, IN

#12 Jan 12, 2018
What in the hell are you even rambling about nothing you just said makes sense. None of it at all I don't know what your problem is and I don't know who you are I seriously thought you could explain things to me but it's clear you can't even do that. It's like I never meant anything to you. That's fine to enjoy your family I will enjoy mine. Just do you man for real and I am going to push myself forward and forget this past year it never happened and it for sure was not real. I'm not on board with your games.
Windowlicker

United States

#13 Jan 12, 2018
Never played games like a child! Never got to be a child ainít starting now! Putting my big girl panties on! I donít hate like you do! Sorry, I forgive you have you can forgive yourself!
YouSaidYouWouldN everLeave

Evansville, IN

#14 Jan 12, 2018
You don't get it I have ZERO clue what you are talking about and why do you speak in riddles I shouldn't have to try and solve this giant mystery I am not even gonna try to anymore it's exhausting and I honestly need to move on with or without closure at this point
Windowlicker

United States

#15 Jan 12, 2018
I try so hard to leave, pulled back into the fire every time! I donít want to be where Iím not wanted. But how am I to honestly know if I am or not! How am I to feel really?
YouSaidYouWouldN everLeave

Evansville, IN

#16 Jan 12, 2018
What?? Again you make zero sense I don't have answers to shit that I don't understand. I am the one that is constantly being chastised and made to feel unwelcome always telling you how i feel only to be put down and treated badly and for what your pleasure I can't take it I am not made for this. I have apologized to you I have tried talking to you it's not me it's not that I didn't try to make shit right. Nothing makes sense anymore you have no grounds to say I make you feel not welcome. Every time I am vulnerable and open up you make me feel wrong for it. WTF are you afraid of?
Windowlicker

United States

#17 Jan 12, 2018
I never asked for anything but to be loved! And technically didnít ask for that, it was willingly giving and promised never to diminish or ever hurt me.
Windowlicker

United States

#18 Jan 12, 2018
Also, the mechanic threads are working! I donít want anything but our sanity, all 3 Iíd ours! Whether itís together or not. Healthy and happy! With peace of mind! No matter what I canít see what I read, I see the hero iv always seem from the beginning!
YouSaidYouWouldN everLeave

Evansville, IN

#19 Jan 12, 2018
You NEVER expressed anything to me. EVER!!! I would not ever do something to intentionally hurt you or that you specifically tell me not to. Don't you get that don't you understand. WTF do you think I am having a great time out here. I feel lost without you. You think I am phsyco or mental and maybe I am you are right. That is what has happened I don't ever want to go through this again and I definitely don't want to make you sad or mad or worse disappointed. I don't want to cry everyday over you. You stopped communicating you should have been open about what you wanted and expected I fucked up it happens we didn't ever have the ideal relationship but who cares it was a giant mess actually but it was our mess and to me it was pretty fucking BEAUTIFUL. So I don't know that is all I got that again is how I feel.
Windowlicker

United States

#21 Jan 12, 2018
I wouldnít be here if this isnít what I wanted! I just need you to be real with me! I donít get mad because I disagree I get angree because I donít like feeling other emotions! Itís easier for me to feel mad then sad! I donít want to feel either! I want us to both be happy! Why wonít they stop? Why are they so fucking cruel? Why am I scared!

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