If he had done anything to Samantha previously...like for a prolonged time-- maybe it was a mental block..??<quoted text>
I want to believe you Jen, I just can't get over the fact if you watch your children at all that she didnt know, I really feel in my heart she knew all about it, but maybe mentally she didn't. I still blame her and don't think I can ever forgive her.
If god can forgive her I guess I should let it go,
maybe it just happened for the first time very shortly b4 that night? and samantha wasnt showing obvious signs yet? or was trying to figure out HOW to tell Rachel. Angel wasnt working and rachel had three kids and was taking classes...maybe she missed something?
Ive discussed this with her countless times after she came around... She asked herself that very question alot. She was CONVINCED tha the 7year old SHE was raising WOULD have said something-- but you beat yourself up afterwards..
or maybe he never did it before and Samantha spoke up or freaked out or threatened to tell or didnt convince him the secret was safe enough? unfortunately none of us will EVER know cuz that beautiful baby took her secrets to the makeshift grave with her...
but one things for sure.. there was enough evidence to suggest that she not only bled alot in the bed, but also in the car... cuz it came out later that he used cleaners in the car..and did more "cleaning up" than was originally leaked out before his plea..
I assure you.. there was a plausable excuse for all the pre-plea little stuff that got out or was alleged.
when i go back now cant find any more info. and that wgrz video said that they searced the house/car and nothing--etc..???
but i KNOW there was some blood in that car or proof that some had been cleaned.. way more incriminating stuff hit us hard right after his plea
so bottom line...if she died of suffocation.. then the blood was most likely vaginal.??? merely a guess...he could have made her bleed in some other way?? but that might also suggest it was "the first time" if you know what im trying to say without being horrible..
either way..hes ROTTEN and you can bet you butt if i find a way to know when he's up for parole that i will be there on samantha's behalf..even if im in a wheelchair..
and id hope that EVERY citizen that lost sleep,shed tears and spent countless hours looking for that baby and peering out their own windows----would attempt to do the same. he tore that community UP and he needs to see some angry faces.
if i know rachel as well as i think i do-- even knowing what she knows now.. even tho she detests him.. even tho her eyes have been opened RIGHT UP--- i think it mite be too painful for her to go. I could see her being afraid it would make her raw again. Shes an emotional person..and she handles grief and pain in an almost childish-- avoidance type way...or at least at that tme.. she just doesnt deal well...
its a LONG time from now.. and maybe Im wrong and she's booked a hotel near the prsion already... but ill be there for sure...
I might even buy an air horn!!
how to get it thru security is another issue