Hopefully u will figure out this is me

[Shlt]

Don't know what's going on with u. I suspect something is wrong by the posts in another forum. I did undue what i posted everywhere. I am sorry for that. I will not post anymore about u. I heard things i didn't like & yes i was upset, how am i to know if any of it is true when u never talk to me. I did call & leave a message to ask u to talk. I haven't done anything else. I haven't bothered u in any way except for what has been on here. U have no clue how things have been for me, how could u? It's been months since we spoken. I am not your enemy i don't hate u. I know u don't want any part of me & finally i've come to agree with that & put it all behind me forever. I hope things work out for u. I mean that. Maybe one day u will remember for who i am & the helllll i went thru for u.
I am sorry for your losses & that's all i can say. Believe it or not, i'm not what u have been made to believe i am. I do promise u that have no worries from me ever trying to reach again or anything else. I put all the time in i could.

[yeah yeah]

Shlt wrote:

Don't know what's going on with u. I suspect something is wrong by the posts in another forum. I did undue what i posted everywhere. I am sorry for that. I will not post anymore about u. I heard things i didn't like & yes i was upset, how am i to know if any of it is true when u never talk to me. I did call & leave a message to ask u to talk. I haven't done anything else. I haven't bothered u in any way except for what has been on here. U have no clue how things have been for me, how could u? It's been months since we spoken. I am not your enemy i don't hate u. I know u don't want any part of me & finally i've come to agree with that & put it all behind me forever. I hope things work out for u. I mean that. Maybe one day u will remember for who i am & the helllll i went thru for u.
I am sorry for your losses & that's all i can say. Believe it or not, i'm not what u have been made to believe i am. I do promise u that have no worries from me ever trying to reach again or anything else. I put all the time in i could.

Lets just finish this tomorrow at recess

[Shlt]

Well if it's u then ok, if not i'm not a kid! I don't care what u think about how mean i've been, u must not have any idea of how hard is to go thru days, nights, months without that one u always wanted. To always be confused. Maybe u thought i was lying about how i felt & your wrong! U do things your way & i did it mine because i truly have never loved anyone like i have u. I swear that with everything in me. U were my belief as much as anything.

[curious]

Will u please post your first name at least? I hope this is who I think it is????

[yeah]

Post a first letter of the name or intials geeze there is alot of us out here like this

[details]

Why would he/she think you are their enemy and what were they told by others? You can only guess how they feel if you haven't talked with them personally. Maybe they are going through a hell of their own also. Your comment could apply to a lot of people. How bout some details without names to narrow it down.

[yeah yeah]

Shlt wrote:

Well if it's u then ok, if not i'm not a kid! I don't care what u think about how mean i've been, u must not have any idea of how hard is to go thru days, nights, months without that one u always wanted. To always be confused. Maybe u thought i was lying about how i felt & your wrong! U do things your way & i did it mine because i truly have never loved anyone like i have u. I swear that with everything in me. U were my belief as much as anything.

Dude the reason I said that is be aide your acting like a damn child posting this on topix trying to get her attention. Come on call her and get off this retarded site

[Shlt]

He won't call, he's afraid to. For reason i have no clue! I am not his enemy as he may think. I am not to get him or harm him! I swear that on my childrens & my one grandbaby! Now this should give a little clue as to who i am. He has 2 L's in his middle name. He loved me at one time, a few months he told me on the phone he no longer did, i don't believe it & will never believe it until he tells me to my face..

[Shlt]

I am so tired of posting all over topix to get your attention. I just would love more than anything to see u again. I am tired & always wondering. I just wish we could go back to our happy place @ 107 & remember all those good times.

[Shlt]

You think back to when we were at your friends, how i was crying in the floor because i didn't even wanna leave u that day for a few hours, but i had to. I really needed u & i still do.
I still have days like that, but your not there to pick me up like u did then.

[Shlt]

I promise u & swear to u with everything in me, i will not ever hurt u. I just can't keep going like this, i swear i can't.

[Shlt]

They are sending my dad way down south far away, my brother way up north, my other brother far away out east. I just really need something & u know about all of this & i really need u more than anything. I don't know how to keep it together without u.

[Shlt]

I can tell u this. I haven't been with anybody in that way since u. That is how long it's been for me! Since nov 2011 i have not went there or that far. I have never set u up for anything & never will!