Letter to a drug addict

Letter to a drug addict

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drug addict

Ashburn, VA

#1 Apr 27, 2008
Dear Friend-I've come to visit once again. I love to see you suffer mentally, physically, spiritually, and socially. Jumpy, nervous, and restless. Agitated and irritable to everything and everyone. To hate, especially yourself. I want you to feel sorry for yourself, to blame everything but your addiction for the way things are. I want you to deceit and manipulate as many people possible. I want you fearful and paranoid. I want you to wake all through the night screaming for me. I want to be the first thing you wake to and be your last memory before you blackout. I would rather you die, I'll settle to put you in an institution or jail. No worry, I'll be waiting when you get out. I love all the damage I'mm causing you. It's amazing what I do to your internal organs, destroying your brain, bit by bit. I deeply appreciate the sacrifaces you've made for me. The countless jobs, dear friends, I'm more than grateful. Especially your family. You sacrifice all these beautiful things to devote your life completely to me. After you have lost all these things you can still depend on me to take more. I will put you in a living Hell, to keep your MIND,BODY,SOUL. I will not be satisfied until you are dead, my friend. FAITHFULLY- Your Drug of Choice
Shawn-s mom

United States

#2 Apr 27, 2008
drug addict wrote:
Dear Friend-I've come to visit once again. I love to see you suffer mentally, physically, spiritually, and socially. Jumpy, nervous, and restless. Agitated and irritable to everything and everyone. To hate, especially yourself. I want you to feel sorry for yourself, to blame everything but your addiction for the way things are. I want you to deceit and manipulate as many people possible. I want you fearful and paranoid. I want you to wake all through the night screaming for me. I want to be the first thing you wake to and be your last memory before you blackout. I would rather you die, I'll settle to put you in an institution or jail. No worry, I'll be waiting when you get out. I love all the damage I'mm causing you. It's amazing what I do to your internal organs, destroying your brain, bit by bit. I deeply appreciate the sacrifaces you've made for me. The countless jobs, dear friends, I'm more than grateful. Especially your family. You sacrifice all these beautiful things to devote your life completely to me. After you have lost all these things you can still depend on me to take more. I will put you in a living Hell, to keep your MIND,BODY,SOUL. I will not be satisfied until you are dead, my friend. FAITHFULLY- Your Drug of Choice
WOW---think that says it all..thanks for sharing. that was VERY powerful and VERY true..
just me

United States

#3 Apr 27, 2008
wow thought you knowed it all, bet you no who u-know is

Since: Oct 07

Location hidden

#4 Apr 27, 2008
drug addict wrote:
Dear Friend-I've come to visit once again. I love to see you suffer mentally, physically, spiritually, and socially. Jumpy, nervous, and restless. Agitated and irritable to everything and everyone. To hate, especially yourself. I want you to feel sorry for yourself, to blame everything but your addiction for the way things are. I want you to deceit and manipulate as many people possible. I want you fearful and paranoid. I want you to wake all through the night screaming for me. I want to be the first thing you wake to and be your last memory before you blackout. I would rather you die, I'll settle to put you in an institution or jail. No worry, I'll be waiting when you get out. I love all the damage I'mm causing you. It's amazing what I do to your internal organs, destroying your brain, bit by bit. I deeply appreciate the sacrifaces you've made for me. The countless jobs, dear friends, I'm more than grateful. Especially your family. You sacrifice all these beautiful things to devote your life completely to me. After you have lost all these things you can still depend on me to take more. I will put you in a living Hell, to keep your MIND,BODY,SOUL. I will not be satisfied until you are dead, my friend. FAITHFULLY- Your Drug of Choice
As much as it hurts to read this, thank you for posting. I dont know what you are going through, but as a child of an addict I know what your child is going through. I want you to know that you can beat this, we are here for you. Dont do it for us or even you, do it for your child. I feel so close to you, I will be here for you to lean on, we all are. the part" I WILL NOT BE SATISFIED UNTIL YOU ARE DEAD" made me cry for so long, It hurts to hear you are going through such an ordeal. I will pray for you.
Shawn-s mom

United States

#5 Apr 27, 2008
just me wrote:
wow thought you knowed it all, bet you no who u-know is
would you like to redirect and send this to whom you meant...you make NO sense..unless you can make whole sentences, you shouldnt play with the forum..
mmullins

United States

#6 Apr 27, 2008
you broke my heart with this after going thru this with my brotherinlaw
thank you for this
i am so proud my son was able to get away from this and join the church and become a wonderful man again that we all no he is
thank you for this comment
WOW!!!
Shawn-s mom

United States

#7 Apr 27, 2008
mmullins wrote:
you broke my heart with this after going thru this with my brotherinlaw
thank you for this
i am so proud my son was able to get away from this and join the church and become a wonderful man again that we all no he is
thank you for this comment
WOW!!!
May God bless and strengthen your son...
fellow addict

United States

#8 Apr 27, 2008
Wow! I'm going to tape this to my mirror. I'm also going to take a copy and read it at my next meeting. Thanks.
From Son To Momma

United States

#9 Apr 28, 2008
I thought this would be nice to share with some of the mothers or fathers who have had to live with a son or daughter who is suffering or has suffered with addiction. This was written by someone close to me to his mother.

Dear Momma
Momma, I see your tears, I hear the questions in your heart. "Where did I go wrong, this is my child why could'nt I make it stop?" For momma, you are not to blame. Remember, it was I who popped that pill or snorted it up my nose. You momma did not make me put that needle in my arm. At first momma it was just for fun. But only after a couple of times, I realized momma I must have it to keep going. You see momma it tricked my mind into making me feel like I had to have it to just get thru the day. Little did I know dear momma how much I was hurting you so. Now I live my life momma with this addiction hovering over me, living one day at a time. I am now clean momma. By the Grace of God and your Prayers, Momma, I am proud to say that I thank God for letting me live on, because now I have a gift to share, that I might help one more person who does'nt want to be there.

With Love, Your Son
drug addict

Ashburn, VA

#10 Apr 28, 2008
"From son to Momma"-This really touched me. Really hits home. Thanks for posting. I'm gonna make a copy and keep it.
From Son To Momma

United States

#11 Apr 28, 2008
You are very welcome. I don't know who you are but you have my greatest prayers. You know this letter was from my husband to his mom. He is an addict. He is clean now and gives his thanks to God for that. I have never been on drugs but I have been thru a lot dealing with family and loved ones that are or have been. I take great interest in doing all that I can do to help those with this problem. My husband and I were not married at the time he was using anything but I still was there and Loved him very much. I went thru a spell though that told myself that I could never be with him as long as he was like this. I myself had to learn to deal with things also. People never know what it is like until they have been there living that life or draling with a loved one who is. Once again you have my Blessings.
drug addict

Ashburn, VA

#12 Apr 28, 2008
I've never been on the other side of addiction. I know I put my family through pure Hell. My Dad, Mom, my kids. They all love me enough to stand by me. It broke my mom's heart when I was arrested and spent time in jail. She was so helpless and I was locked up and couldn't do anything about it. When we were in the courtroom and I was sentenced my mother actually fell to the floor. I was in handcuffs and couldn't even put my arms around her. When my Father died, I was using, and all he ever wanted was to see me clean. He never got to see me clean. I could go on and on, Oh Lord, how it breaks my heart to think about it. I need your prayers, I deal with this demon every day. Staying clean consumes your life as much as using. Pray for those who are using, trying to get clean and those who are.
Shawn-s mom

United States

#13 Apr 28, 2008
Such a very true statement and very powerful:

STAYING CLEAN COMSUMES YOUR LIFE AS MUCH AS USING

WOW, God bless you for sharing with us and making
people more aware of the real side.
Redneck 3

Nicholasville, KY

#14 Apr 28, 2008
I usually do not post on forums or things of this nature but I can hear the cries of those in need and cannot turn a deaf ear.For all those who really desire help there is a church at Pounding Mill, Virginia that has pastors that deal with drug addicts and they do not put you down nor do they shove religion down yur throat. They are very good at what they do and they have had some good results. If you are interested in talking with them post your e-mail and I will send you a number where they can be reached. They may even come to your area and start a support group.
Freebird

Bluefield, WV

#15 Apr 28, 2008
drug addict wrote:
I've never been on the other side of addiction. I know I put my family through pure Hell. My Dad, Mom, my kids. They all love me enough to stand by me. It broke my mom's heart when I was arrested and spent time in jail. She was so helpless and I was locked up and couldn't do anything about it. When we were in the courtroom and I was sentenced my mother actually fell to the floor. I was in handcuffs and couldn't even put my arms around her. When my Father died, I was using, and all he ever wanted was to see me clean. He never got to see me clean. I could go on and on, Oh Lord, how it breaks my heart to think about it. I need your prayers, I deal with this demon every day. Staying clean consumes your life as much as using. Pray for those who are using, trying to get clean and those who are.
I very seldom post on here,but enjoy reading a lot of threads on here.I like it because you meet people of all different life styles,people with different types of problems,etc.you can read some posts that will make you laugh your ass off,some will make you so mad you want to kill somebody,some that is so sad,that it will want to make a grown man sit down and cry,and your post is one of them,but I can also see a good,bright,and hopeful side of your posts.one thing is you have been there,you know what it is like,you have admitted you have a problem,and you really want help.I am not a christian,but I do know god is real,and he will answer prayers.I hope that every christian that reads your post takes the time,and remembers you in their prayers,I would love to see you have a complete turn around in your life,you have admitted you need help,you want help,you need help,and you deserve help.I hope that your days of darkness will turn into sunshine,as I said I read a lot of posts,but your post was the one that caught my attention,and struck my heart,the most of any other post that I have read.I hope god steps into your life and conforts you,and through the prayers,and you believing in him,and you wanting,and asking for help,just keep on beleiving,god will step in and take control.I just wanted you to know that your post not only caught my eye,but also latched on to my heart.
Freebird

Bluefield, WV

#16 Apr 28, 2008
From Son To Momma wrote:
I thought this would be nice to share with some of the mothers or fathers who have had to live with a son or daughter who is suffering or has suffered with addiction. This was written by someone close to me to his mother.
Dear Momma
Momma, I see your tears, I hear the questions in your heart. "Where did I go wrong, this is my child why could'nt I make it stop?" For momma, you are not to blame. Remember, it was I who popped that pill or snorted it up my nose. You momma did not make me put that needle in my arm. At first momma it was just for fun. But only after a couple of times, I realized momma I must have it to keep going. You see momma it tricked my mind into making me feel like I had to have it to just get thru the day. Little did I know dear momma how much I was hurting you so. Now I live my life momma with this addiction hovering over me, living one day at a time. I am now clean momma. By the Grace of God and your Prayers, Momma, I am proud to say that I thank God for letting me live on, because now I have a gift to share, that I might help one more person who does'nt want to be there.
With Love, Your Son
WOW,another great post,that was not only an eye catcher,but one that will strike your heart.But thank god,you are now clean,and hopefully you will not go through another storm,all the days ahead will be all sunshine,and you can be a light to someone else.just keep on,kepping on,Good Luck To You!!!
Know Them

United States

#17 Apr 28, 2008
Freebird wrote:
<quoted text>WOW,another great post,that was not only an eye catcher,but one that will strike your heart.But thank god,you are now clean,and hopefully you will not go through another storm,all the days ahead will be all sunshine,and you can be a light to someone else.just keep on,kepping on,Good Luck To You!!!
Thank you. I do hope I can be a help to others.

“Be nice.....”

Since: Dec 07

Lex

#18 Apr 28, 2008
This thread is just awesome....nothing more I can say...
drug addict

Ashburn, VA

#19 Apr 28, 2008
Freebird wrote:
<quoted text>I very seldom post on here,but enjoy reading a lot of threads on here.I like it because you meet people of all different life styles,people with different types of problems,etc.you can read some posts that will make you laugh your ass off,some will make you so mad you want to kill somebody,some that is so sad,that it will want to make a grown man sit down and cry,and your post is one of them,but I can also see a good,bright,and hopeful side of your posts.one thing is you have been there,you know what it is like,you have admitted you have a problem,and you really want help.I am not a christian,but I do know god is real,and he will answer prayers.I hope that every christian that reads your post takes the time,and remembers you in their prayers,I would love to see you have a complete turn around in your life,you have admitted you need help,you want help,you need help,and you deserve help.I hope that your days of darkness will turn into sunshine,as I said I read a lot of posts,but your post was the one that caught my attention,and struck my heart,the most of any other post that I have read.I hope god steps into your life and conforts you,and through the prayers,and you believing in him,and you wanting,and asking for help,just keep on beleiving,god will step in and take control.I just wanted you to know that your post not only caught my eye,but also latched on to my heart.
Thank you. Just wanted to let you know that I am clean now. I haven't been using for a short time, since I was released from jail I've been clean. Another inmate gave me a copy of the letter I posted while I was there. My biggest fear in there was to face this world and stay clean. I post a lot on here about addiction, it hits home with so many people. I am hoping for a complete turn around in my life. I've come a long way, but there are still a lot of highway left to get there. At one time I felt like I was lying in a tunnel, the light at the end almost gone. I knew that if it blackened, I would die. Now I see that light getting brighter. One day I hope to see it shine. I fight this so hard everyday, afraid of falling. I have to live just for today. My posting on here helps myself and I hope that it helps others who are in my shoes. I've studied addiction for so many years, trying to figure out what makes me and others this way. I can't find no answer to that. This area is infested with it and so many need to be educated, maybe addiction can be understood a little better. I don't know a whole lot, I just hope what I do know helps someone. Again, thanks so much for caring, that makes me feel good.
Freebird

Bluefield, WV

#20 Apr 28, 2008
drug addict wrote:
<quoted text> Thank you. Just wanted to let you know that I am clean now. I haven't been using for a short time, since I was released from jail I've been clean. Another inmate gave me a copy of the letter I posted while I was there. My biggest fear in there was to face this world and stay clean. I post a lot on here about addiction, it hits home with so many people. I am hoping for a complete turn around in my life. I've come a long way, but there are still a lot of highway left to get there. At one time I felt like I was lying in a tunnel, the light at the end almost gone. I knew that if it blackened, I would die. Now I see that light getting brighter. One day I hope to see it shine. I fight this so hard everyday, afraid of falling. I have to live just for today. My posting on here helps myself and I hope that it helps others who are in my shoes. I've studied addiction for so many years, trying to figure out what makes me and others this way. I can't find no answer to that. This area is infested with it and so many need to be educated, maybe addiction can be understood a little better. I don't know a whole lot, I just hope what I do know helps someone. Again, thanks so much for caring, that makes me feel good.
I truly wish you all the luck in the world,Im sure youre going through some very rough times.I know you have been thru so much already,but I hope you can end up being a hero in the war youre fighting in.just remember every day you stay clean,is another day closer to winning the battle.I am sure its much harder to do than anyone who hasnt went thru it could imagine.Im sure you have to had made a lot of changes in your lifestyle,from what you were used to,but it will be worth it.Its so good to know that your family sticks by you thru this,you will need all the help and support you can get.If you dont mind me asking,how long was you incarcerated? if you would rather not answer,please dont,I fully understand.I have close friend,and a family member that is problemed with the same,and one thing we make sure of,is to give all the support and help we possibly can.do you attend any type of counciling?as I said your post was one post that I have read on here that really went to my heart,like I said,its enough to make a grown man cry,and my heart goes out to you.you are special.Good Luck!!

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