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You have adequately identified what ails you.
You base your whole life on your preferences as dictated by your self interests according to your human nature.
Based on one of your previous postings , you still prefer dropping acid. That preference is leading you down the wrong path
You prefer to believe that nonliving matter can spontaneously convert itself into living matter ,of it's own volition.
Preferences are not based on reason , they are based on desires.
We ,who believe in God ,do not base our beliefs based on our desires , but do so ,based on testing God's word , waiting for the results and based on those results , we determine the validity of his existence.
"We who believe that genocide is a good thing"