In the area of family relationships, I have always lacked and never experienced happiness or peace even when my dad, mom and sister were alive and now that they're no more I am still unhappy and not at peace but my adverse condition is improving due to someone special who has just come into my life a couple of months ago. I will give out the details later.<quoted text>
On-line, I find solace in Papa's (Frijole's) online presence - I don't crave his attention or his acknowledgement of me.
Just his presence on-line replying to Hugh, to you or to Former is reassuring.
I think it is a psychological thing to find comfort in the presence of someone who you look up to as a father.
Otherwise, things are improving in my life.