I applaud you for working so hard...<quoted text> I don't understand it because of the way I was raised. I have learned to be o.k. with it and I'm changing more everyday.
I choose a higher power because the god I was raised on was full of hate and violence. A higher power is just a force greater then yourself, its a personal matter, for some its things like nature or maybe, the love of your children, it can be anything that you can count on. I know its weird but it is what it is.
I don't understand gay marriage for stupid reasons og ignorance and evil. I work daily to improve my views so my children will not be raised like me. I don't want them to be in a world full of hate, bigotry and pain. I've lost my family, my friends of years past I've lost everything because of the views I once had. When I choose to denounce my lifestyle it was just part of something I had to do. I carry physical (ink, pain from fights, I've been stabbed, etc) and mental scars (from the damage I inflicted) from years past. I've left scars on those i came in contact with that didn't share my old beliefs. My only intention here was to show if I can come to tolerate others choices, anyone can. I can never make up for what I have done, but I can make improvements for my children. I don't want them to be like me, raised like me, in the environment I grew up in. I guarantee I won't sleep tonight because of my struggles with excepting my past but that's nothing new . Anyone who wants to dig on me please feel free, I deserve it. I know where I've been, I know where I'm at and I know where I'm going.
If I can only say one thing to you it is this quote:
"Don't judge me by my past...I don't live there anymore."
Best wishes to you in the future.