look in the mirror, the face in the mirror is the problem. your whole message is full of doubt, insecurity, hesitation.
Go spend some time on the couch get some professional help to improve your self image your view and thinking about the who you are.
if your unsure, uncertain about you, the people around you will be unsure about you as well.
got to get some new positive image girl.
as for dating other races, having dated I found that black woman tend to bring a lot of baggage from previous marriages, relation ships on the date with them. Spend way too much time going over why something failed.
they need to leave that stuff on the couch or in the clothes hamper with yer dirty socks.
They don't seem to know what to do with a guy that treats them like a real special human being...
its a new day start with new improved you..........