I've studied up on the arguements on both sides of this issue. I've listened to hours and hours of radio shows pertaining to it. I've followed legislation gay activists push for. I know the issue inside and out. I loathe the gay lobby - it's vile, oppressive, intolerant - a brutal socio-political juggernaut.

But I also know something else. As a heterosexual sinner, I am in the same exact boat as the gays and transexuals - I am no better. I feel very judgemental about them, but then I have to stop, remind myself of my own sexual/lifestyle deviancy, and stifle my judging tounge.

God didn't say not to judge, no. The bible says to not judge HYPOCRITACALLY. It said to not point out a speck of sawdust in your brother's eye while at the same time ignoring the plank of wood in your own eye.[Note: I have only been aware of this passage within the last few days, and it changes my whole outlook].

My sexual/lifestyle deviancy? I am a pornographer, and indulge in masterbation weekly. I also am attracted to pre-pubescent girls. Before the fire alarm bells go off, no, I've never touched one, or been in a situation where I was close to doing that. The pornography I use is adult women, but if it weren't illegal, I'd probably look at pictures of little girls. In a way I'm grateful it's illegal, an incentive to avoid advancing these fixations.

I'm also an alcoholic - getting drunk 7-10 days per month. I also struggle with overeating. These are the crosses I carry.

I am an unrepentant sinner. I acknowledge the truths of the scriptures, I believe God is the savior of the world, but for whatever reason, I don't humble myself and surrender my mind, will, and life to Him. I am a foolishly prideful, stubborn and smug individual. Please pray for me. Please.

Conversely, I see the mission/goals of those pushing gay rights, striving to transform, subvert, overrule and bypass all existing laws pertaing to sexuality, relationships and gender roles.

While I myslef carry my own cross to bear privately -autonomously- gays brodcast and trumpet their moral weakness, and obtrusively superimpose it onto the culture, media and politics via the immense gay lobby.

They denounce God, and all his relevence in all areas of law and government. Gay ideology promotes that the only barrier to total sexual expression/freedom is the concept of mutual consent, meaning any permutation/combination/number s that one's own personal appetite desires. Gays indulge in reckless promiscuity - shown by research and from inumerable gay testimonies I've heard/read.

While these realities are true, the gay lobby presents homosexuality as totally equal to straight unions, with the same values, needs, and goals, conveniently hiding their shocking lifestyle pathologies from the table.

I feel for them. The cross I bear is equally destructive. But luckily for me, there isn't an immense cultural movement and political lobby in place to browbeat and brainwash to believe I'm not going to hell; to convince me that my proclivities are a normal variant of healthy behavior; that my fixations are 'who I am', that I was 'born that way'- born with compulsion for pornography, alcohol, pedophilia, and gluttony. I am fortunate that with my sins are looked down on by society, condemned, and thus an incentive to better myself. I am grateful there's no aggressive gluttony/drunkenness/pornograp hers/pedophilia "rights" movement. Gays should be so lucky.