LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8643 Sep 8, 2013
Population control de la Valerie Solanas?

Why are they doing this? Someone mentioned population control to me. Well, I think they might be onto something. I think romantic love relies on the dopamine-acetylcholine balance ( I know I've said that so many times ). It's sort of like imprinting for certian mates. I don't think I was particularly brainwashed by either of my parents or the media and I had a propensity for this kind of love. I think they want me dead.

I think my inclination towards romantic drive is genetic. I'm in the final stages. I'm starting to hear "do it! do it!" chanted over and over again in my mind hinting that I should comit suicide or something. I'm not saying I'm going to do it, but I understand where they're coming from. First off, my genes may be "bad". I'm pretty sure I was born bad. Second, there alredy 7 billion people on the planet, who needs my kids right? Third, I do not agree with these people... blah blah blah

I don't think all women want "guys who think with their dicks". Not all women, even within the left, agree that romance is bad and romantic love is totally wrong. WRONG. Why are you telling me this? I'm not talking about cheesy sterotype love. I'm talking about the affective component of love. I think it is a necessary component.

I see love as an act of rebellion. Why the hell are people still getting married? Why would you marry if you weren't intending on showing affection for one another?

Anyway, I'm talking in circles and cheesing out to defend my views. Let's get this clear: In the end it's pretty clear where I stand, and where they stand, add to that my theories so far, they want me dead ( maybe ).

I also did something wrong.

I'm a psychological abuser. I'm not a physical one but psychological abuse can be just as bad. To keep things short, I ignored her feelings in favor of my own, so they took my feelings away ( hence the affective component of love was gone ).( voice in my head: Cry us a river asshole!)
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8644 Sep 8, 2013
LunaticFringe wrote:
Population control de la Valerie Solanas?
Why are they doing this? Someone mentioned population control to me. Well, I think they might be onto something. I think romantic love relies on the dopamine-acetylcholine balance ( I know I've said that so many times ). It's sort of like imprinting for certian mates. I don't think I was particularly brainwashed by either of my parents or the media and I had a propensity for this kind of love. I think they want me dead.
I think my inclination towards romantic drive is genetic. I'm in the final stages. I'm starting to hear "do it! do it!" chanted over and over again in my mind hinting that I should comit suicide or something. I'm not saying I'm going to do it, but I understand where they're coming from. First off, my genes may be "bad". I'm pretty sure I was born bad. Second, there alredy 7 billion people on the planet, who needs my kids right? Third, I do not agree with these people... blah blah blah
I don't think all women want "guys who think with their dicks". Not all women, even within the left, agree that romance is bad and romantic love is totally wrong. WRONG. Why are you telling me this? I'm not talking about cheesy sterotype love. I'm talking about the affective component of love. I think it is a necessary component.
I see love as an act of rebellion. Why the hell are people still getting married? Why would you marry if you weren't intending on showing affection for one another?
Anyway, I'm talking in circles and cheesing out to defend my views. Let's get this clear: In the end it's pretty clear where I stand, and where they stand, add to that my theories so far, they want me dead ( maybe ).
I also did something wrong.
I'm a psychological abuser. I'm not a physical one but psychological abuse can be just as bad. To keep things short, I ignored her feelings in favor of my own, so they took my feelings away ( hence the affective component of love was gone ).( voice in my head: Cry us a river asshole!)
... you know what, that whole thing might've been a tape.
Michaela

Manassas, VA

#8645 Sep 8, 2013
LunaticFringe wrote:
<quoted text>
... you know what, that whole thing might've been a tape.
What might have been a tape? Who is "they" taking your feelings away? You should have sent an apology to those you affected, whoever you are.
Michaela

Manassas, VA

#8646 Sep 8, 2013
LunaticFringe wrote:
<quoted text>
In person of course. Not more tapes. I hate tapes.
Your words mean nothing here unless you explain what you mean... and you need to try harder of you are trying to expose corruption.
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8647 Sep 9, 2013
Michaela wrote:
<quoted text>
What might have been a tape? Who is "they" taking your feelings away? You should have sent an apology to those you affected, whoever you are.
Nothing will make a difference now. I'm a robot. I do not love. I do not grieve. It's a nightmare. I can't believe what happened to me is real. Sometimes you have to read between the lines instead of being an ass and lying to yourself about the reality. It's like one of those horror movies / shows with the ironic endings where the protagonist stares up into the sky as the camera zooms out screaming because he's made had some horrible realization.

But enough about me. It's always about me.

What's your situation? Theories?
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8648 Sep 9, 2013
LunaticFringe wrote:
<quoted text>
Nothing will make a difference now. I'm a robot. I do not love. I do not grieve. It's a nightmare. I can't believe what happened to me is real. Sometimes you have to read between the lines instead of being an ass and lying to yourself about the reality. It's like one of those horror movies / shows with the ironic endings where the protagonist stares up into the sky as the camera zooms out screaming because he's made had some horrible realization.
But enough about me. It's always about me.
What's your situation? Theories?
this read between the lines garbage is lame. damn perps.

Since: Sep 12

Location hidden

#8649 Sep 9, 2013
LunaticFringe wrote:
I'm a psychological abuser. I'm not a physical one but psychological abuse can be just as bad.
You're a TI, right?

Then, you should already know that "psychological abuse" is sometimes WORSE than physical abuse.

Not judging, just sayin'.
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8650 Sep 9, 2013
A Special Place In Hell wrote:
<quoted text>
You're a TI, right?
Then, you should already know that "psychological abuse" is sometimes WORSE than physical abuse.
Not judging, just sayin'.
It's okay, I'm sick of being afraid to face things. The stigma goes both ways. That's why they do what they do. Well, maybe some of these groups aren't so bad. They don't have to be all part of the same thing. What happened to me wasn't a random act of malice. They're torturing me because they are doing one of two things:

1) Treating me for my abusive personality OR
2) Just trying to get revenge on me.

OR they're doing both. I don't know. I'm leaning towards 1) perhaps a bit of 2)

For the rest of you.. you might be dealing with evil people. The guys who came after me, might not be so bad...not that that makes me feel any better. I have no idea what they did, and what their angle is. I have noticed slight changes in my behvaiors, thoughts, and emotions, and this really bothers me. These groups may be highly political regarding their views of many things.

I can agree with them on a few things. I agree that idolizing someone is just as bad as devaluing them because it involves objectifiation. I agree with them that romantic scripts can be deadly and destructive because they force your partner in to role that you define. These things make sense to me. I agree that in my case what I did had something to do wih contempt for the girl. I wasn't fully aware of that and that is what manifested my behaviors. I am also very narcissitic and I have a low self esteem. I was projecting my desires on to her, living through her. I even suggested she study and do the things that I wanted to do.

Aggression is strange thing. You can bottle it up and ruminate which can lead to issues, especially if you're not particularly in tune with your feelings, unaware of your real motives.
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8651 Sep 9, 2013
A Special Place In Hell wrote:
<quoted text>
You're a TI, right?
Then, you should already know that "psychological abuse" is sometimes WORSE than physical abuse.
Not judging, just sayin'.
Yeah, I think I've read that somewhere that too. I'm not going to deny that.
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8652 Sep 9, 2013
Michaela wrote:
<quoted text>
Your words mean nothing here unless you explain what you mean... and you need to try harder of you are trying to expose corruption.
Have a look back through some of the threads. Actually, I might not have explained it. The "tapes" are pre-recorded for use with DEW. They convey "messages" that are "fried", for lack of a better word into the subconscious. They make up the paranoid experience. They also possibly "activated" during dissociated states. Ok. I realize this all sounds nuts. It's just too much to explain..... doesn't matter anymore. I don't know who I am anymore.
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8653 Sep 9, 2013
*posts in this thread. not threads
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8654 Sep 9, 2013
Michaela wrote:
<quoted text>
Your words mean nothing here unless you explain what you mean... and you need to try harder of you are trying to expose corruption.
Sorry.
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8655 Sep 9, 2013
You perps really are assholes.. my dad bought that stupid CD. And 2/3s to 4/5ths of my so called friends haven't called me in years!! I know now you're on here. I am the Terminator. This sucks. I hate thinking. I'm actually coherent right now.

Just throwing it out there. Have you heard of the connection between a drop in acetylcholine and mania? Of course you have.. I wish I could know more...Yeah, the technology interferes with acetylcholine doesn't it? So it could cause a manic state as in a manic love. Just a thought. I wasn't out of it from the first time when I first met her, part of me was behind. Is that why my brain shut off so easily.. now I'm the Terminator. I better buy some shades I guess.
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8656 Sep 9, 2013
I guess I'll spend my life locked inside alone. That's a great way to have healthy relationships.
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8657 Sep 9, 2013
LunaticFringe wrote:
I guess I'll spend my life locked inside alone. That's a great way to have healthy relationships.
Thank you whoever judged my post.
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8658 Sep 9, 2013
Please tell me what my type of love is, and why it's no good anymore, why women don't want it. I want to know the politics, I want to know what music is right to listen to, I want to know whether melodies should be abolished like in that equilibria movie where they get rid of all art.

Beatuy is deadly, isn't she? She's tempting and hard to let go of, isn't she? Is that why? Is that why I should stop listening to music? the truth is laced in it, and you'll find it everywhere, even in the worst of genres.
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8659 Sep 9, 2013
You know what? I've never broke into anyone's email account but tou don't have to in order to make it look like your sending an email from someone else's account!! you only need to use an smtp server daemon on your local machine and set the header. It's a bad joke though. Make sure you make it CLEAR it's a joke. It's cool. So don't get too freaked out by the perps. They don't necessarily have your personal information..losers that they are.
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8660 Sep 9, 2013
sorry, shouldn't be calling the perps losers should I. I'm learning slowly I hope.

Since: Sep 12

Location hidden

#8661 Sep 9, 2013
A MESSAGE TO HUMANITY
__________
NOVEMBER 5, 2013
March on Washington, D.C.

https://www.youtube.com/watch ...

Bring your Children, Mothers and Fathers, Friends and Relatives.

***"To remind the world what it has forgotten: That fairness, justice and freedom are more than just words."
LunaticFringe

Toronto, Canada

#8663 Sep 9, 2013
I've been abusing these forums a bit. I just think there are perps on here and monitoring this stuff so I'm kind of hoping they'll hear me.

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