That's between you and the Almighty, Lily. You only have to be willing to believe Jesus was God in the flesh and came here to tell us who He was, humble yourself, turn from your rebellious nature and ask for forgiveness. He does all the rest.<quoted text>
So, if your heart is full of hateful ignorant racism and intolerance of others; what happens??
Just like that captain of one of the slave ships who ended up writing the hymn, Amazing Grace, and spent the rest of his life fighting for the abolishment of slavery. He followed the steps above. And received a new heart. Like millions of others.
I truly hope this helps.