I let my girlfriend take naked pictures of ME back when we were in high school.

I only thought about those pictures again after we broke up and I then felt a little uncomfortable with them being out there. This was before the internet so I didn't have that worry, but I did have uncomfortable thoughts of her showing the pictures to her mom, to other girls from our school, to her new boyfriend, etc.

I thought about asking for them back and destroying them, but I never got around to it.

Twenty-five years later, I've long ago lost contact with her, but now I'd kill to have them back. But not now to destroy them. Hell, I'd blow them up and put them over the fire-place - I'd send copies out as Christmas cards!

In retrospect, I now realize that posing for her really contributed to my confidence about myself. She told me I was beautiful back then and I half-believed her.

I KNOW I didn't understand how temporary everyones youthful beauty is. Now I know I'll never again be a tenth as beautiful as I was at 16. It would be great to once again see myself as I once was.

I've thought about trying to look her up and see if she still has these pictures somewhere.

But, on the other hand, looking up ancient girlfriends is itself kind of sad and pathetic. So I think looking up an ancient girlfriend in order to see naked pictures of YOURSELF would just be too weird even for me.

But if you're out there Rebecca Ann ...