Hey sweet,I have had the worst experience with a white guy any women can ever have with a man. I am a African American women and regret ever having sex with a white guy. Call it curiosity. I call it stupidity. I think that I was just feed up with black men and wanted to explore. I regreat douting my black men. While in the area of the West coast I was constantly being hit on by white men. Normal I would'nt have gone there because my family was devoted Nation of Islam fanatics. So as you can see I was the type of sister that would stand by her black men thought thick and thin. But the black men in California were soooo disrespectful to the black girls it was'nt funny. Hence that is ther area where the "bitches and hoes" Thing came about. Also while I was there I'd notice that the black men found white women very easy and did'nt want to fight for "The Prize" If you know what I'm saying, So all these very good looking college jocks was doing anything to get with me.I finally gave in and actually started dating this guy "Ted" He insisted on having me drink wine. I told him I was not that experineced with drinking. I still decided to say "what ther hell" and drank a few drinks of this very exspensive wine his grandmother had in her wine collection. One thing led to another and we ended up on his patio. He began to comment saying "Your breast are amazing" I gringed at the perverted look in his eyes,So I stated to him how it was getting late and I'd be late for class in the morning. He made me feel so special. Usally black men don't make women feel special like white men. So I guess I let my ego get the best of me. To make a long story short when he actually laid me down and had is wish, I can today never forget the feeling of Rape I felt as he penetrated my walls. It felt like a cold hard souless piece of steal just enter my warmth. It did'nt feel right at all He was very big! But I thought to myself "I'v had black men who were bigger! "But it never felt like this". It lacked warmth and any way and I was in extreem pain afterwards. I never felt so violated. With a black man even though they are not into foreplay it still felt warm. I thought to myself mybe its just this particular white guy and like an idiot trying to prove myself wrong,I had sex with other white guys,but it was still the same. I want to know if other black women have had this experience? But now I know why black men marry and have sex with white women because to a man if the womens insides are cold (white womens insideds), A man feels no connection to love and where there is love there is responibilty. Maybe the coldness of a white womens insides give him a sense of unattachment to love leaving only lust.But to a women we love love not lust.
I'm really sorry that you were unhappy after sleeping with that White guy. It sounds like you felt awful. But now you can put it behind you and forget about it. At least you've learned something.
Don't listen to these assholes and all the horrible names they're calling you. They have no compassion. But it is true that you weren't raped.
Rape has to be non-consensual. You should probably stay away from the White boys if they don't make you feel good.