My Struggle of Being a Teen Black Girl

My Struggle of Being a Teen Black Girl

Posted in the African-American Forum

First Prev
of 4
Next Last

Level 1

Since: Mar 12

Location hidden

#1 Mar 6, 2012
Unlike the other girls, I... I'm a lonely girl. I'm not cute, hot or popular, and I don't have any friends besides, well family members. I'm not like real ugly, but I'm underdeveloped, I;m in highschool, and I got no breasts, hips or anything. Other black girls have big booty's, but me, I just don't have much. I get my hair relaxed and done, so atleast my hair is pretty, but that's about it.
I'm not sure if I have a pretty face either. My face looks pretty in a way, except I have bags under my eyes from maybe not taking the best care of my health.

When I left middle school, I thought I would start being with people more, and I thought my body would develop more. Somethng else had to happen instead. Months just rolled by withou me talking to anybody at school, and when I wasn't at school, I was at home.

I was and I still am the weird girl. I haven't had any contact with the opposite sex. No boys would ever come up and talk to me or anything. I spend my entire weekends at home, and the only people I talk to are my mom, and my younger brother, who is sorta like my older brother.
Let me finish...

Level 1

Since: Mar 12

Location hidden

#2 Mar 6, 2012
I looked at myself in the mirror, and I don't look at the mirror as often as most girls do, but I saw my big anxious eyes with bags under them!

I had no make up to fix it, and I never wear make up. Then, I walked to my brother's room just to talk to him because I was so lonely that I just needed to talk. To anybody. Before I talk to my brother, I decided to put some glasses on, so my anxious eyes won't be as noticeable....

Level 1

Since: Mar 12

Location hidden

#3 Mar 6, 2012
I put on the tightest jeans I had, and I pulled them up as tight as I can. Now with my glasses, and my tights I wanted to see what my brother's first reaction would be. I walked to him in his room. Before I could say anything he looked at me and said. "what the f... You're hela ugly!"
Those words hurts, and then he said "Oh, it's just you, you startled me."

"So.. you didn't have football practice?" I asked
"No the season just ended, and what are you doing here in my room?" he said.

" I just decided to talk, and you know it wasn't long ago when we used to play games and things together. I am your sister after all, and there could has to be something we could do together. " I answered while trying to hide my hurtness.

Then he said "ahh can't you see I'm busy."

" Can't I just say something? See, eversince high school, its been tough, and now I can't talk to anybody outside the family anymore."

"What. What are you talking about?" He asked

"I mean I like lost it." I answered

"So, what do you want me to do about it." he said

"Can you talk to me at least once a day, so I can be able to talk better, again?

"Ok, sure, whatever." he said.

That was terrible. I had to ask my younger brother for help.

"O

Level 1

Since: Mar 12

Location hidden

#4 Mar 6, 2012
I then started thinking. Since no guys are walking up and talking to me, then I must be ugly, but I don't look *that* ugly in the mirror do I ? No, I just haven't developed yet.

Well, since I'm not pretty I guess I need to do things opposite style, maybe I should try to talk to guys first, but I don't think its supposed to be like that.

I always eat lunch all by my self. I decided that maybe I should try to talk to the teacher, he's a guy so I should practice talking. On him. After class, I walked to the teacher, and I said "Oh, eh um... hi"
" Hi or bye. Just be careful out there, ok.

I ran out the door as soon as he finished talking. I finally had a conversation with someone! I finally had a conversation with a guy! I then realized that I barely said words to him, and I wondered why he told me to be careful. WHy?
Masud_S_Hoghughi __

Dubai, UAE

#5 Mar 6, 2012
....is there a worse thing to be in this world than a young female negrow?.........

Level 1

Since: Mar 12

Location hidden

#6 Mar 6, 2012
I tried it a few more times, but I just couldn't talk to him. For some reasn, he made me feel protected.

I then did some reading, and I found something that increase estrogen, they could make me sexy and developed. I was excited to try the new things, but they didn't really work. I found that being aroused/ turned on increases estrogen. I also learned that we girls can masturbate to. So, I played this game, and I masturbated for a long time one night and it got me very aroused. I felt good for no reason, and the next morning, I noticed I had a glow in my skin, and I wasn't ashy. My eye bags were gone and my hair was shiny too.

Why do other girls where makeup and stugg, if they could just get aroused?

My mom looked at me with a strange face just before I left to school for some odd reason. For the next few days, I decided not to bathe or shower, because what I was doing was making my skin beautiful. I'm a hot girl now I thought. I noticed that my brother was looking at me funny.

" I'm way too hot for him I, he shouldn't be looking at me I thought.
Suddenly My brother bluntly said, "you really stink, go take a shower!"

So, the all along I was going to school smelling stinky?!

J-Town Ninjas OHH yEe AH

“Fair and Balanced”

Level 5

Since: Nov 10

Location hidden

#7 Mar 6, 2012
hahaha good story... lol wtf is wrong w people on here

“DA BEAR TELLED ME I'AM FAT”

Level 5

Since: May 11

ATLANTA, GA.

#8 Mar 6, 2012
J-Town Ninjas OHH yEe AH wrote:
hahaha good story... lol wtf is wrong w people on here
Our goverment has no place to intern the insane, so they give them computers to amuse there bi-polor disorders all day, pretty smart, huh, part of Obama care.
Pan-Africanist

United States

#9 Mar 6, 2012
OP you need help 4real this thread is giving even me the creeps.

Level 1

Since: Mar 12

Location hidden

#10 Mar 6, 2012
No I'm not insane, its just the way life goes for me.

“I Love My Life!”

Level 6

Since: Nov 08

Location hidden

#11 Mar 6, 2012
Jaunty Janessa wrote:
Unlike the other girls, I... I'm a lonely girl. I'm not cute, hot or popular, and I don't have any friends besides, well family members. I'm not like real ugly, but I'm underdeveloped, I;m in highschool, and I got no breasts, hips or anything. Other black girls have big booty's, but me, I just don't have much. I get my hair relaxed and done, so atleast my hair is pretty, but that's about it.
I'm not sure if I have a pretty face either. My face looks pretty in a way, except I have bags under my eyes from maybe not taking the best care of my health.

When I left middle school, I thought I would start being with people more, and I thought my body would develop more. Somethng else had to happen instead. Months just rolled by withou me talking to anybody at school, and when I wasn't at school, I was at home.

I was and I still am the weird girl. I haven't had any contact with the opposite sex. No boys would ever come up and talk to me or anything. I spend my entire weekends at home, and the only people I talk to are my mom, and my younger brother, who is sorta like my older brother.
Let me finish...
Concentrate on school. You might just be a late bloomer, I was. You are worrying too much over the wrong things. SCHOOL. Don't worry about all the other stuff.

Level 1

Since: Mar 12

Location hidden

#12 Mar 6, 2012
I tried another way too, I read that oily foods can help the body make estrogen, because hormones like estrogen are made from lipids (fats), and even lighten periods. But I just couldn't understand, I'm already eating a lot of greasy foods, may be I just need to eat even more oily foods.

Also, estrogen makes women curvy.

I started eating at cheeseburgers at Mac Donalds every day after school for a greasy snack. I even ate down whole sticks of butter when no one was looking. For some reason, nothing happened. I didn't get any curves or anything. Well, at least it didn't make me fat or gain weight either.

The only thing that did happen was me getting humiliated. I was sooo embarrased one time when I went to MacD's all by my self. I thought no body from school would be there, and I could eat in peace and quiet, but no a group of them were there. I tried to finish my big mac as fast as I could, so I could run out of there before they see me, but it was too late. I heard them saying things like,
"Oh I wonder what that weird girl is doing here".

I then noticed that my brother was there too, with his group of friends. And him, and one of his friends saw me just as I was about to leave.
"Is that your weird sister, she's ugly" I heard someone say.

I knew I embarrassed my brother. I ran out of the building, and I ran to the park and sat on the swings.
Suddenly, I woke up. I must've fainted from getting up and running so far and fast. My brother was standing over me, and he said.
"Next time... don't go there alone. You embarrassed the hell out of me."
Sueme

United States

#14 Mar 6, 2012
Jaunty Janessa wrote:
I tried another way too, I read that oily foods can help the body make estrogen, because hormones like estrogen are made from lipids (fats), and even lighten periods. But I just couldn't understand, I'm already eating a lot of greasy foods, may be I just need to eat even more oily foods.
Also, estrogen makes women curvy.
I started eating at cheeseburgers at Mac Donalds every day after school for a greasy snack. I even ate down whole sticks of butter when no one was looking. For some reason, nothing happened. I didn't get any curves or anything. Well, at least it didn't make me fat or gain weight either.
The only thing that did happen was me getting humiliated. I was sooo embarrased one time when I went to MacD's all by my self. I thought no body from school would be there, and I could eat in peace and quiet, but no a group of them were there. I tried to finish my big mac as fast as I could, so I could run out of there before they see me, but it was too late. I heard them saying things like,
"Oh I wonder what that weird girl is doing here".
I then noticed that my brother was there too, with his group of friends. And him, and one of his friends saw me just as I was about to leave.
"Is that your weird sister, she's ugly" I heard someone say.
I knew I embarrassed my brother. I ran out of the building, and I ran to the park and sat on the swings.
Suddenly, I woke up. I must've fainted from getting up and running so far and fast. My brother was standing over me, and he said.
"Next time... don't go there alone. You embarrassed the hell out of me."
I used to be really skinny and depressed about it until I got older and looked around... all the thick girls because fat, and I became some what thick. It works in your favor later in life trust me.

aZiya

Since: Feb 11

Location hidden

#15 Mar 6, 2012
Jaunty Janessa wrote:
I tried another way too, I read that oily foods can help the body make estrogen, because hormones like estrogen are made from lipids (fats), and even lighten periods. But I just couldn't understand, I'm already eating a lot of greasy foods, may be I just need to eat even more oily foods.
Also, estrogen makes women curvy.
I started eating at cheeseburgers at Mac Donalds every day after school for a greasy snack. I even ate down whole sticks of butter when no one was looking. For some reason, nothing happened. I didn't get any curves or anything. Well, at least it didn't make me fat or gain weight either.
The only thing that did happen was me getting humiliated. I was sooo embarrased one time when I went to MacD's all by my self. I thought no body from school would be there, and I could eat in peace and quiet, but no a group of them were there. I tried to finish my big mac as fast as I could, so I could run out of there before they see me, but it was too late. I heard them saying things like,
"Oh I wonder what that weird girl is doing here".
I then noticed that my brother was there too, with his group of friends. And him, and one of his friends saw me just as I was about to leave.
"Is that your weird sister, she's ugly" I heard someone say.
I knew I embarrassed my brother. I ran out of the building, and I ran to the park and sat on the swings.
Suddenly, I woke up. I must've fainted from getting up and running so far and fast. My brother was standing over me, and he said.
"Next time... don't go there alone. You embarrassed the hell out of me."
You need to find some weird friends, I know you're not the only "weird" person in school. Make friends with others who dnt have friends and get picked on. You'll feel better if you had friends
You can't expect to become popular and good looking over night, that only happens in the movies
And stop eating that nasty shyt

Level 1

Since: Mar 12

Location hidden

#16 Mar 6, 2012
I still like eating oily foods though. I then tried very spicy foods, because I noticed the Mexican girls at school were the most busty girls there, and mexicans like spicy foods. Maybe, spicy foods will make a girl like me busty. I tried it, but the only thing spicy foods do for me is burn my tongue. Ouch!

One morning I woke up feeling very good! My minds was so clear, and I was happy for no reason at all. I felt so good, I decided to run all the way to school, instead of my parents dropping me off. I was able to run to school, and I didn't faint, but as soon as I got thier I had to throw up. My mouth was fountain, and to make it worse my breath smelled sort of like alchohol. Others probably thought I came to school drunk. How could I explain myself to them?

At my third hour class, just before lunch, I felt super hungry. I was weak and light headed and I knew had to eat something. Fast!
I did have a packed lunch with me, but I coudln't eat it in class, could I? If I eat it in class, I would look rude, and I would look like a "munchy girl".

I couldn't wait any more. I had to eat or I might pass out. I finally grabbed my turkey sandwich with my clammy hands, and I began to eat in class. Some of my classmates turned and looked at me as if I was chewing loudly. I finished my whole lunch in class, and my teacher said, "would you like to tell the class how good your lunch was?'

"um, sorry but I had to eat" I said
I heard snickering. I keep having to embarrass myself to meet the needs of my stupid, under developed body!
Pan-Africanist

United States

#17 Mar 6, 2012
Cheer up I would probly like you if youre sane. We all have it rough.

aZiya

Since: Feb 11

Location hidden

#18 Mar 6, 2012
Haha I think she's writing a book or something.

Level 1

Since: Mar 12

Location hidden

#19 Mar 6, 2012
Next thing I knew, time flew. Winter break started, and I was about to me lonely. I hadn't made a single friend from school, and the only non-family friend I knew was my friend from middle school. She was more developed than me, she was taller, had boobs, and she had a booty. She called me, and suggested that we should hang out since we had'nt seen each other for months.

When I saw her, she made me green with envy, and I also felt disgusted at my self. I'm not supposed to be jealous, I should be happy to see my only friend. I thought. She probably felt embarrased next to me, so I was thankful she would risk being seen with me. She asked me how life was going for me, and I lied about having a boyfriend, and good friends to be with.

She noticed how out of style I was, and we both went shopping together. I bought some skimpy clothes, so I could be more stylish, but I wasn't sure if the clothes would fit right on my under developed body. I had to get the smallest bra size they had for sale.
I barely had enough money to pay for my clothes, but luckily my friend paid for 5 dollars of my own clothes for me.

While I was at the mall, I realized that I needed tha right panties to wear, so that there won't be any lines showing through my tights. I asked my friend, and she told me about thongs. I bought a thong, thinking it would make things better for me.

When I finally got home, I couldn't find my thong. I should've never bought the stupid thing, I wasted my money, and I couldn't find my thong.

Level 1

Since: Mar 12

Location hidden

#20 Mar 6, 2012
As winter break went on, it was finally christmas eve. I asked my mom for some money to go shopping again, but I wasn't going to buy clothes, I was going to buy something to cure my boredom. I went to the pharmacy, and I bought me a little messager. I could use it to masturbate with, but why am I buying something like this on such a holy day. I thought.

When I got home, I decided to first try it out to see how it feels on my neck before I undress. It was late at night, and I was in the living room just messaging my neck. Ahh, it felt so relaxing that I accidently fell asleep. I woke up in the bed, and my messager was next to me. One of my parents must've carried me to bed.

Now, my parents knew what I was trying to do.

Level 1

Since: Mar 12

Location hidden

#21 Mar 6, 2012
One day in Winter Break, I was stayed up super late because I was having so much fun. Unlike most girls, I play videogames, and I even discovered a new type of game, called Otome games. I was having so much fun that night, that I couldn't just waist it by going to sleep. As it got late, everyone was sleeping except me. The house was nearly silent, and the only noise were these scary sounds I kept hearing.

I tried to reason away the sounds by thinking, oh that was just the wind or something, but It didn't work. I heard cracks form the floor, and the spooky wind blowing. My room was the only room that was lit and not dark. An hour later, I had to pee. I really had to pee! I felt like It was going to leak out at nay moment. That moment, almost wished I was a boy, because then I could just pinch it shut.

I thought about sqautting over the trash can to pee, but I could get caught. I had to got to the bathroom, but it was down stairs, down where it was dark and scary. I woke my brother up in the middle of the night and I asked him to walk me to the bathroom.
"Go yourself, he said
"I can't go down there by my self, and if you don't come with I'll just release my girl power in your room. How about that?" I said
It worked, and he agreed to walk down stairs with me. After I used the bathroom, he asked me a question.

"Why are you staying up so late any way?" I didn't answer and he went back to bed. I then had to change clothes because some of it leaked.
Winterbreak ended.

Tell me when this thread is updated:

Subscribe Now Add to my Tracker
First Prev
of 4
Next Last

Add your comments below

Characters left: 4000

Please note by submitting this form you acknowledge that you have read the Terms of Service and the comment you are posting is in compliance with such terms. Be polite. Inappropriate posts may be removed by the moderator. Send us your feedback.

African-American Discussions

Title Updated Last By Comments
News Barack Obama, our next President (Nov '08) 2 min Grey Ghost 1,522,942
I LOVE choco-bunnies 5 min Harrisson 25
News Black Atheists, Agnostics Are Appealing To Afri... (Nov '14) 7 min Savant 55
What African Americans really are 18 min The Power Of Mast... 28
Negro behavior in public places 20 min The Warden 22
WM is mad b/c white girls don't like him. Elli... (Jan '15) 21 min Harrisson 129
Black Women Are Finally Leaving Black Men - BWG... (Aug '16) 50 min Harrisson 20
Racists are not born, they're created 1 hr The Power Of Mast... 58
Do black men really have larger penises? (Sep '10) 2 hr BWGTOW For Life 1,495
IRBW And Their Fantasies. 3 hr Harrisson 862
BLACK MALES ARE THE MOST DELUSIONAL PEOPLE ON T... 7 hr IT IS I 72
More from around the web